The Ex-Assassin's Girl (Remastered 2020)

Chapter 10: How it is started?

(Y/N's) POV

My mind is flying around. I found myself staring blankly while sitting at the edge of the ship.

Killua? The kid who saves me before who happened to be my friend now, is also the brother of Illumi, the guy who murdered my parents. I can't accept this thought. I was so angry right now, maybe because of the fact that he is now my enemy.

I am here to revenge for my parents. 'Waaaaaaaaah!!!!!!! Why is that my mind like this!!!!!' I thought to myself while my hands is holding my head shrugging around.

"Please? Could you listen to me?" I froze as I heard the familiar voice.

I turned my head to see him. I began jumping back a pose a fighting stunts. "What do you want!? Get away from me! From now on, I don't want you to be near me! At least, I don't want to see your face! If so, I don't know what will I gonna do to you. At least, as long as I can control myself, leave!"

He was about to say something when I cutted him off.

"Now!" I shouted.

Then he left! I crumbled down as he left. I was so angry. I want to cry. I feel like my energy was drowned.

'Oh! Pleasseeeee! Help me! What would I do now.'

KILLUA's POV

I am in pain right now. Y/N doesn't want me to be seen or even to be near her. I am very hurt for what she has said.

I am here in front of the mirror at the comfort room. Staring myself. My eyes now looks like an eyes of a shark. No emotion can be found. But deep inside me I want to break out.

Y/N is very important to me. I remember when I first saw her.

* F L A S H B A C K *

My father gave me a mission: To observe the surroundings near at Mr. Tajiyama's house which is in a Rich Man's Village near the Wataro Forest. Mr. Tajiyama is our next tarhet, which is the order of my father's client. I am surveying the site, so we can plan and estimate our moves before the assassination.

One morning, I am walking at the said village. I dress up like a simple kid, violet shirt, a black short, and my favorite shoes, just walking around the village and getting pass-by the target house.

I found a park in the said village to stay for a minute. There's so many kids playing there. On the park, my eyes caught a white little girl with a brown apple cut hair sitting at the corner crying. My sight locked at her, I think she is about my age. Asking myself in curiosity, 'why is she crying? alone?'. Then two boys and three girls, at our same age, stand in front of her.

"You little weakling! Don't play with us! Choo! You're weak! Weak!" They yelled at her.

"Weak!"

"Weak!"

Then the little girl ran off still crying. I noticed that she has a scratches, or rather a wound in her knees. I don't know why, but I followed here thinking that, 'where is she going?'

Then I found out that she's going home as she opened and entered the gate. It is a big house though, but ours is bigger compare to this. Their house is at the end corner of the village and near at the back entrance of the forest.

I don't know but everytime I went in that village to observe at Mr. Tajiyama's house, there's no times that I wouldn't walk in front of the house of that girl.

Even when my mission was done, I often escape at our house just to walk around there to watch her. Her hazelnut orb eyes is beautiful. She's so cute, she has an angelic face. I don't know why? But during that time, staring at her from the distance was ok with me. I don't have the guts to talk and introduce myself to her.

By watching her, I'd got to know her name and her parents name. Her smile is just like a new sun setting up in the clouds.

And then months passed by, that time I was looking for Illumi and my father said he was on to a new mission, getting rid the family of Mr. (Your Father's Name) (Last Name). My eyes shut wide opened. 'No! It's Y/N father.' I thought.

I quickly ran away at the house and follow Illumi. I entered the house and I was late Y/N's parents was dead. Blood was all around. The guards, the maids, and every people there was bloodily dead. I look for Y/N but she is nowhere to be found. I quickly ran out of the house even Illumi was not there. I don't know but my senses says to look at the forest which I do quickly and searched.

After a moment, there she is, I found her. She look scared, crying and helpless. Illumi lifted her and he has about to kill Y/N then I snapped out and turn my godspeed to snatched Y/N from Illumi. Away from him, I dropped Y/N and I was in front of her, blocking from any harm.

After some arguments with Illumi, I planned to ran and get her away from him by my godspeed. Fortunately, I do. Then, there in the city, Y/N and I had a conversation. I was rude on that time because I don't know what would I gonna say. I don't even had a chance to introduce myself to her.

As I left her, my conscience is bothering me. So my feet led me back to where Y/N is. Away from her, I saw a lady approach her and talked to her. She was about to brought her home. I heard the lady's name is Lorrie. Thank God! She kept Y/N. I didn't stop watching over her.

As Y/N grew, she look more beautiful and cute. Still the angelic face I'd known. She's been so caring with the other people around her and she is beloved by them.

I started to feel something special to Y/N despite our young age. I've been attracted to her, and the urge to protect her from any harm is still not fading.

I heard she's going to took the Hunter Exam, as what I've done also, thinking have a chance to met you formally and protect you as well. But I'm being afraid on the other side thinking that.... what if someday she'd know that her parents was killed by my family, my brother to be specific. Would she let me be the part of her life? Because I want to be near her. How many years that I've waited to have a chance for that.

*End of Flashback*

Now that it is happening, being friend with you, protecting you, close to you, but even the most frightening, was also happening now.

Damn! How could I gain your trust again? How? 😫😩😢😭

"Killua? Killua? Are you there? We are all now calling." Gon said as he knocked at the door of the comfort room.

"I'll be going." I answered.

Then I left and close the door.