again i woke up with paranoia and a terrifying feeling in the pit of my stomach. why does this keep happening?!
ever since the boys left for the tour, ive been having nightmares. not the type where you just wake up in shock and a tad scared, full on terrified. but when I wake up I can never seem to remember them....which I found weird. this has been going on, like I said, since the boys left. that was 8 weeks ago. continuous, non-stop nightmares. its really bringing me down and I dont even have harry here to help me out. the girls have helped a lot. I spoke to elenor and perrie about my nightmares. they both came to the conclusion that it was because harry wasnt around at the moment. that my mind was playing tricks on me because I missed him and he was so far away.
I mean yeah it made perfect sense. it was just really hard. I. starting to look like a racoon. with all the pack of sleep and all.
harry doesnt know about the nightmares or the lack of sleep. if I told him, he would be right back here on a plane before I could blink, and I didnt want that. he needed to finish the tour with the boys.
as I shook away my thoughts, I got out of bed and headed for the shower. help me clear my head.
as I washed my hair with my berry scented shampoo I began to wonder what harry was up to at that point in time. how he was. how he was coping with the distance. then I began to wonder what the girls had planned for today.
at least twice a week every week since the boys left perrie, elenor and I would go out and spend the whole day and night together. it was great. we did a lot of shopping for us and the boys, went to the movies, had coffee, and just spent time together. it was great. I got to know the girls really well. now we acted like the boys do with each other. like weve known each other since we were kids. its great!!
as I got out of the shower I slowly dried myself and got dressed for the day. getting out of the bathroom my phone rang. I looked at the caller id and answered.
"heey elenor whats up?"
"hurry up and get ready girl were going shopping again!!"
"im ready, im ready. come pick me up!!"
with that I hung up and made my way down stairs. harrys mum was sitting in the lounge room so I went to sit with her.
"good morning dear, how are you?"
"yeah im okay thanks, how are you?" she looked at me and it must of clicked that I had had another nightmare. (I spoke to harrys mum about a lot)
"another nightmare alisa?" I just nodded as she brought me in for a hug. rubbing my back and then pulling away to look at me.
"everything will be okay. theyre just bad dreams"
"I know" I said as I gave her a small smile. not too long after elenor and perrie arrived. I said bye to harrys mum and left with the girls.
the drive to the shops was eventful. when I say eventful I mean for perrie and elenor. for me it ment falling asleep, I found that out when elenor nudged me awake. I stirred then groaned, rubbing my eyes and unclipping my seat belt.
I then proceeded to get out of the car, nearly falling over in the process.
"did you put vodka in your cereal this morning lis?" perrie laughed helping steady me.
I also laughed and shook my head.
"not today!! just not getting a lot of sleep anymore" I frowned at that as we walked into the shops.
"those damn nightmares are going to be the death of you, I swear." elenor said full of worry.
"its a good thing you havnt mentiomed them to harry. he would be home already if you did." perrie and I nodded in agreement and continued to walk as we made it to a really nice candle shop.
