Its been a while since Harry auditioned for X Factor. He got through the auditions and went on to perform live in front of millions. I along with his mum and Beth without fail we were at evey show cheering for him and hoping for the best. Hes now in the top 100 and im so proud of him. To call him my best friend and how successful he is already.
We were sitting in the lounge room at Harrys having our usual Friday night movie night in our pajamas. Just like we have since the start of high school. We had all kinds of junk food spread out for weekly ritual. I was sitting next to Harry on the couch with my head on his shoulder. Any outsider would think we were dating. But we were just best friends and that was that. Though somewhere along the line of our friendship i started thinking about different scenarios, and i was again tonight. Like Harry and I dating or somehow being more than friends in the future to come. But i erased those thoughts as soon as i had them because i knew he didnt like me like that and i surely didnt like him THAT much...Or did i? My thought process turned to mush as we started our night.
The first movie we watched was Shrek, my all time favourite. Harry wasnt too big a fan of it.
"As long as your happy, im happy. Ill watch whatever you want to watch." He said and smiled down at me then kissed my forehead. I smiled up at him and then turned to watch the tv. He rested his chin on my head and thats how we stayed throughout all 3 movies we watched.
After the movies we headed up to Harrys bedroom and got under his covers. Yes when we stayed at each others houses we would share a bed. It was normal for us because we had done it for so long and we were just friends.
Our parents had always had sneeking suspicions that Harry and i would end up together and dating somewhere along the line, but they werent sure when. Especially now with X Factor being a big part in Harrys life recently.
For the rest of the night and partly into the morning, we stayed up cuddling close and talking about anything and everything. At one point Harry had me in such a fit of giggles i couldnt breathe and was rolling around on the bed like a silly goose. I calmed down few minutes later and resumed my position at Harrys side. It wasnt until around 4am that we actually got to sleep.
"Night my precious Liss.." Harry spoke softly in my ear, the nickname he had given me when we were kids.
"Goodnight Styles.." I whispered giggling softly.
Harry was standing behind me with his hands over my eyes. I couldnt see a thing! I almost tripped, Harry caught me before i could and just laughed.
"Where are we going? and why are you covering my eyes?" i whined, but then let out a giggle.
"You'll see Alisa." He said and i could tell he was grinning like a fool. We walked for a few more minutes before i complained again.
"Are we there yet??" Harry let out a chuckle and replied with a simple "patients Liss." Before i could complain again we had stopped walking and Harry dropped his hands from my face and held one of his in mine. Before us was a beautiful picnic set out for 2. We were in Harrys grandparents backyard, it was a gorgeous backyard mind you. I looked to Harry with a small smile on my face to see him with a cheesy grin plastered on his lips. He held his other hand out toward the display and spoke.
"After you." I slowly walked to the picnic blanket and sat down, Harry following suit and sitting in front of me on the opposite side of all the food and beverages in the centre of the blanket. I was looking at all that was there and then looked up at Harry, his brilliant green eyes staring into my ocean blue ones. We both slowly leaned forward and soon our lips were touching. It was a slow lingering kiss and before i knew it we were both pulling away and Harry started unpacking the food and poured us both a drink. As he unpacked it all, i noticed many of our favourite foods. Mixed M&M's being in there too.
After everything was unpacked we ate and made casual conversation. Once most of the food was gone we sat just talking, when Harry pulled a small box out of his jeans pocket and lifted the lid of the box.
"Alisa Page Browne, you've been my best friend for so long and we've been through everything together. From scraped knees to broken bones and sitting in the ER. I love you so much and your all i ever wanted. Happy Birthday my beautiful Liss, wi-"
I was awoken from my amazing dream by Harry nudging me, in all his glory, standing in front of me in just some sweat pants and a tray of food. I wondered what time it was and groaned from still being half asleep. I sat up and made some room for Harry to sit beside me. I hadnt realised, but he had an amused expression etching his facial features. I looked at him confused and he laughed.
"Just as i walked in i heard you sleep talking." He explained laughed softly.
"Oh god what did i say?" I asked embarrassed covering my face with my hands. I was never too pleased whenever someone heard me sleep talk, especially Harry.
"Weeeelll...all you said really was 'YES' ", He said mocking me. I glared playfully at him and slapped his arm. He just laughed and told me to hurry and eat so we could hit the road for his next X Factor performance.
This time around Beth didnt come with us, she had headed out before i had even woken up that morning. So it was just me, Harry and his mum who i adored. The performance Harry and the other contestants were doing today werent aired live, they were just filmed and would be put on tv later on that week. Before we knew it it was time to head back home. Or back to the Styles residence, which was practically my home anyway because my parents travelled a lot for my dads work, so i thought id stay with Harry and his family everytime my parents were away. Which was the majority of the time.
Its been 6 months since harry made it through the X factor auditions and now hes been put with 4 other boys Liam, Louis, Zayne and Naill, and they now perform together. I had met the boys a few times before and they were all great people. The 5 boys were getting closer and closer to the end of X Factor and i was so happy for all of them, they were doing an amazing job. I remember another one of mine and Harrys Friday night movie nights and we had been speaking about his progress throughout the show.
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You better remember me when your famous Styles." I had said as i poked his stomach. He laughed and grinned at me.
"Of course ill remember you. Silly Liss." I then got quiet and just continued watching the movie that we had put on. Harry sensed my uneasiness and turned my face so i was looking at him.
"Liss? whats wrong?" I closed my eyes and sighed. I looked back up at him to see his piercing green eyes staring back at me concern etched his whole face.
"I..I just...Im scared that if you become famous...Youll forget about me and we wont talk anymore and wont be so close like we are and have been for so long." A tear slipped from my eye and he wiped it away and kissed my forehead. The next few minutes were him reassuring me that, that would never happen and we would talk as much as we could, if he did become famous that is...
At this point we were back to looking into each others eyes and before i could even process what was going on Harrys lips met mine and at first i was shocked, but soon kissed him back. It was so passionate and all too soon he pulled away. We again looked into each others eyes and i could see that Harrys were full of love and concern. I looked back to the tv and continued watching the movie, while Harry stroked my hair until i fell asleep.
We never spoke about the kiss we shared that night. Its as if we didnt need to, but i wasnt sure what was going on between us. I was so confused. Does this mean he likes me? or are we just still really good friends? Was he just trying to comfort me? He had comforted me in many ways throughout our friendship, but never like this...Has something changed now? are his feelings different now? I never told him that i had a slight crush on him ever since we started school together, after kindergarden. But i didnt think i needed to until the kiss we shared made me like or maybe even love him all that much more.
What am i to do...? Do i tell him and risk our friendship...or dont tell him and sit and wonder 'what if'?
