To Infinity & Beyond

I Surrender

You won't have to be worried anymore,

Because I'm telling you all of my secrets.

Some of which, are my regrets.

I used to think negatively of myself,

All because of the ones that put me down,

That were the reason behind my internal frown.

I used to, though not anymore;

Self Harm, I did commit.

It's one of my regrets, I'll admit.

I used to fake my happiness,

Paint on a smile,

Though it hadn't been real in awhile.

I used to push people away,

Build walls around my heart,

You were doomed from the start.

But somehow you found a way in,

And I somehow became your friend;

You proved, that it wasn't pretend.

So now I tell you how I feel,

How I've felt, deep inside;

All alone, without a guide.

I'm sorry for all I've done,

I knew you would've given me aid,

But I was just too afraid.

You truly were my one true companion.

Now, I apologize to you, 

For what I'm about to do.

Laughing by day,

Crying at night,

Still, I've kept up the fight.

But here is where I surrender,

This is where I say Goodbye,

All I want to do is simply, die.