I Miss the Feeling

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I miss the feeling

That everything will be okay.

I miss the feeling

That I used to feel everyday.

I miss the happiness

That my life once could be.

I miss the happiness,

That my life once brought me.

I miss the feeling,

That everything was bright and good.

I miss the feeling,

But now I know more than I should.

I miss the feeling of ignorance,

Of how it brought me such bliss.

I miss the feeling of ignorance,

The security blanket I thought I'd never miss.

Now I miss the feeling

Of the cold metal against my skin.

I miss the feeling

Of the darkness seeping in.

I miss that relief

That washes over me once it's done.

I miss the relief,

Though the pain I can never outrun.

I miss the feeling

Of that cloud looming above.

I miss the feeling

That I'm the one that deserves no love.

I miss the darkness

That I once fought.

I miss the darkness

That had centered in my every thought.

Now I miss the feeling

Of that hopelessness inside.

I miss the feeling;

It showed me I could survive.

....I miss the feeling

Because I'm no longer alive.

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