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chapter 46. Bristol's pov. part 1

"I love you." I tell Louis as we are getting ready to fall asleep.

We just got finished with 20 minutes of pleaser and now we're going to take a nap. Today was fun.. So far. We haven't really been getting into doing all the fun stuff anymore with each other. We just sit at home. I wonder if he feels the same way?

{Louis pov.}

I watch as Bristol falls asleep beside me, and I can't seem to do the same. I haven't been planing stuff like I always used to. I feel like a terrible boyfriend. We used to do all these crazy things together and everything, but now we just sit at home.

Shhhhtt! What if she feels the same?! What if she's gonna dump me tomorrow or the next day because we never have fun together anymore?!

Nononononononono. She can't feel the same way. If she did she would have already left! Right? At least, I think that's how it goes? Right?

My mind is swirling with curse words and monstrous thoughts about her leaving me for someone better. Kenzie and Harry always seem to be together and have fun. But they had the tingles and everything. They didn't say they loved each other until they were on there 2 month anniversary. Me and Bristol... We said it like, 3 weeks into our relationship. We wasted the tingles. They're gone now. We know each other so well and we already did it so many times, we don't get the tingles anymore. I miss it. It was beautiful. To get the feeling of someone you really like, or maybe even love.. To be right beside you. You not knowing what to do when you're trying to impress her. I can't deal with the pain of making her more sad than she was with Aiden.

No! Don't say that! Aiden hurt her. He beat her. You're nothing like that! I yell myself hitting my forehead.

I love her more than anything in the world. And if it took me so much as to break up with her for her to be happy... Then I will.