Home Again, Soldier

17- Just Gonna Stand There And Hear Me Cry

17- Just Gonna Stand There And Hear Me Cry

Title cred:  Love The Way You Lie by Eminem ft. Rhianna

I lay awake Saturday night. Everything is calm and quiet like it normally is, but my head isn't. Usually, that's normal too, but the rustling in my head is making my body squirm and it's not so peaceful anymore. Knots are forming in my stomach, but not bad knots, no, like the good knots I felt with Jack last night. The more I think about last night, the more restless my body becomes and I give in. I'm a teenage boy, totally controlled by my hormones and I'm so upset because of it.

I walk over to Jack's bed and crawl into it, he doesn't wake up and it kind of pisses me off. "Jack" I whisper, trying to shake him awake.

"Alex? Are you okay?" his voice is raw and tired and it just sounds so hot. I can't help it, I lean in and press my lips against his, feeling him smile into it. "What's wrong?" he asks again. This is not me, and I know that by what I do next, I'm so fucking ashamed of what I do next. I push a leg in between his two legs and grind up so my hips rub against him with friction that just makes the knots in my stomach tighter.

"Alex...I thought you didn't-" Jack is cut off when I take his lips between mine again.

"Shut up" I snap my hips up to get him to go along with me. And he does, he so does. He rolls on top of me, his bare chest pressed against mine, I never really slept without a shirt on but I had taken it off somewhere around midnight when my thoughts made my entire body feel too hot.

Jack's hand skates down my bare chest and I don't have anytime for foreplay right now, I just want him to do it. "Are you sure?"

"Yes, yes, yes" I practically beg, I mean I'm not drunk right now. But that was enough for him because his hand slides under the elastic and grabs onto my dick right away. When I start to moan a little too loudly, he has to use his other hand to cover my mouth so we don't wake Lindsey and Dana or maybe even Hailey who's all the way downstairs. His hand shapes around me perfectly and he starts to move it, so quickly, from base to tip. He removes his hand from my mouth and replaces it with his lips, not missing a beat with his other hand. If it weren't there I'd probably be babbling, telling Jack to go faster or just plain out moaning Jack's name.

Every sensation just feels so good and so new and I was already so turned on before I even thought about waking Jack up. All of that wraps up into one big explosion and I'm cumming into his hand way too quickly to ever claim that I'm cool. 

He removes his hand from my dick and gets a Kleenex to wipe it off before tossing the dirty rag on the floor. I'm still breathing hard through this entire process and when Jack goes back to kiss me again my breathing speeds up again because oh my god I have to touch him now. It's like I didn't even think about that when I was on my walk over here.

"Alex? God, I knew you didn't want to"

"No, no, it's not that it's just..." I trail off, far too embarrassed to finish that sentence.

It takes him a minute to figure it out but when he does, he just smiles and cuddles up next to my side. "It's okay." but I feel like its not, especially since his hard on is digging into my thigh.

I bite my lip and let a finger trail down his stomach, stopping just before his bellybutton them coming back up. "If I wanted to, would you let me?" I ask, seriously thinking about it.