"what will they do without you?"
i stand here, feeling small.
i hope i'm not the only one.
my job was to dust off the underdogs after being thrown under the bus. laugh all you want, at least i have something to fight for.
i won't listen to you. i will drive you crazy with my mystery.
what they will do without me?
they will rebuild and grow flowers, because i am taking the poison with me. they will plague another place, so don't worry. lower your shields and start cleaning up.
if i have courage, it's not how i thought it would be.
pain in the gut, and a dizzying lightheadedness to top off the panic.
the worry after a deed, fear of being another victim.
only, i will not panic in front of them.
no tears, just courage.
-java
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diaphanous
Poesíadiaphanous is a collection of various poems written by java around 2014-2016 about enduring parental emotional abuse and bullying at school as well as navigating through major depression, social anxiety, and generalized anxiety.
