i just want to say that I wrote this around the ages of about 13 through part of 15 (2014-2016). this "book" was with me through a lot of the trial and error that is life. i was a very different person than i am now, as i had been going to a very small christian school in the south. there were at most 29 kids in my whole grade. i was miss goody two-shoes and i hated curse words, and i was definitely a pick me and a low-key misogynist (because of bullying particularly by my female peers, though that's not an excuse; just an explanation.).
around the time i started, i had just been diagnosed with major depression, severe social anxiety/social phobia, and generalized anxiety disorder. i had just gotten through a lot of bullying by my classmates and was still going through it, just not as bad. i was also being emotionally abused by a parent. a lot of things may seem trivial but to 13-15 year old me, it meant life or death.
anyways, i feel that it's important to note that i'm not the same person. however, there are some pretty cringey parts and it's 100% okay to laugh! i decided not to change anything except for some minor spelling and grammar errors and maybe some awkward wording (but not the meaning). i also excluded some of the poems that i felt were more distasteful than not. i hope you enjoy this work by younger me.
thank you so much.
- java
p.s. please don't forget to vote if you enjoy any of these— even if they make you laugh from the cringe.
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diaphanous
Poetrydiaphanous is a collection of various poems written by java around 2014-2016 about enduring parental emotional abuse and bullying at school as well as navigating through major depression, social anxiety, and generalized anxiety.
