Hate That I Love You

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(Perrie)

Were back on the road again. Yesterday,during the break,I have tried all my might to avoid Calum.

Like yesterday morning,when he tried talking to me.

flashback...

I woke up with a headache. Damn,what happened last night? I stood up walking to the mirror.

As I face the mirror,I saw my eyes red and puffy. I have dark bags beneath it. Thats when I remember last night,

Me confessing to Calum everything. And him also confessing to me when he thought I was asleep.

Now I have to avoid him... I dont wanna fall for him harder.

I walk out my room and go to the kitchen. I made myself some coffee. Gah,crying too much last night gave me a headache.

As I steer my coffee,I didnt realize Calum walk in. "Morning,.."

I almost spilled my coffee! I look at him with a surprise and panic look. I try to hide it by saying, "Uh... Morning to you too." I said.

He laugh a little. "You look like a hot mess." He said. I blush,did he just call me hot?

"Uhm.. T-thanks I gu-guess." Fuck! Why did I have to stutter?

"So about last night..." He said. Of course he has to bring it up.

I look at him stirring my coffee. "About that... Lets just forget about it?" I said faking a smile

While his smile turn into a frown. "W-what?"

I nod. "Yup... I shouldnt have said all of those. It was nothing really. It didnt mean anything..."

He shook his head. "That didnt mean anything to you? But why did you say it Perrie?" I saw in his eyes he was fighting back tears.

"I... I dont know. Maybe... Just please dont tell anyone about what I said. It was just a spur of the moment..." I lied.

"Im.. Im glad your being honest,but are you really being honest?" He literally cried.

"Of course I am... Theres nothing to cry about Cal." I said.

"Dont you 'Cal' me. Were not friends! You hate me... I HATE YOU!" And he ran away.

I was at schock and hurt because of what he said... Guess what!?

I lock myself in my room and cry my eyes out with a fucking headache

End of flashback...

The whole bus is weird. No not the bus but what's happening on the bus.

Leigh-Anne and Luke are closer than usual. They were laughing and joking around. They were times that they were cuddling. Well I found out they're bestfriend a from the past as what Jesy told me. And now their friends again. This by far is the most happiest Leigh-Anne I have ever seen. When me and the girls met her she was use to self harming and has eating disorder. It was hard for us since we are her best friends. But when she finally stop all of that we were so happy for her. But I'm glad she's happier now.

Jesy and Ashton as usual they were always the noisy one here but now their just quite. They would always tease each other or argue about the little things but now Jesy is just hugging her teddy bear and Ashton is just eating his sandwich and drinking from his My Little Pony cup.

Wait... My Little Pony? Seriously? Isn't he too old for that. Sure is Ashton has a lot of surprise...

While Michael and Jade.. Oh don't get me started with the two of them. Jade isn't the person who always uses her phone but now I think every minute that she can she's texting someone. Michael,well his always on his phone but he never use it while smiling like a idiot,unlike now. Are they texting each other? Hmm.. Maybe not. They don't like each other.

Gosh... Why am I thinking and trying to solve all of this when I can't even solve my own problem with Calum. Ugh... This is so stressing.

Calum won't even give me a single glance. I try talking with him but he just walk away. I can't blame him tho.. It's my fault.

I wish I could wake up with amnesia and forget about these stupid little things... Ugh! I should stop using their song tho...

Gosh Perrie you baby... Come 'ere and I'll give you a hug! Don't worry baby... Momma got you..

Ugh! What am I saying? She's older than! And here I'm saying I'm her momma...

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