Hate That I Love You

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(Perrie)

I walk in the girls bathroom wiping my eyes. I feel like the world is against me. My best friend thought I hate her and now,all of them find out about what happened to me and Calum.

Luckily no one else was here so I'm free to cry my eyes out without judging eyes. I look at myself at the mirror,my make up is smudge from the tears.

Calum's right. I'm a bad person. I hurt him and Jade. I hurt two people who doesn't deserve to be hurt. I should be the one hurting right now... I already am hurting.

I shouldn't have told Calum about my feelings. Now all I felt is guilt. Every time I close my eyes,all I saw is Calum's hurt face when I told him it was all nothing. Nothing but a spur of the moment.

"Perrie?" I turn around and saw Jade looking at me.

"Why are you here? What are you doing here?" I snap.

She just walk towards me and hug me. "It's okay Perrie. Just cry it out." He whispered.

I cry once again hugging her back. She run circles around my back comforting me.

I can't believe even if after I didn't accept her relation with Michael and insult both of them,she's still here. Trying to comfort me and saying things are gonna be okay. Telling me Calum didn't mean any of those.

"She mean it Jade. Why wouldn't he? He hates me..." She pull away from me.

"Calum's just mad. When you walk out he was so mad at himself." She said.

"His right... I'm a bad person. I don't even know why your here comforting me. I insult you and your boyfriend... You should be mad at me." I said.

"No Perrie... What you did was a bitchy move but I forgive you. I'm your best friend,I love you. I would always care for you and will always be by your side."

"Thanks Jade... I'm really sorry for all I said. I didn't know what came over me. I was just shock..." I said and she just smiled.

"It's okay Pezza... I know you didn't mean it. I'm sorry for slapping you,I shouldn't have done that." She frowned.

"It's also okay Jade. You were also mad and if I was you I will also slap you." I said.

"Now... Friends?" She hold her hand out. I look at it and look at her shaking my head no. She gave me a confuse look. I smiled and hug her..

"Sisters..." I whispered. I felt her smile in the hug.

"So tell me... What were you and Calum talking about back there?" She ask pulling away.

"I knew you would ask that..." I let out a quite laugh.

"I'm curious..." I told her everything. About me getting jealous of Calum and Ariana. When Calum notice me glaring at Ariana... I told her everything!

"Why did you said you didn't mean it?" Jade ask. As disgusting as it sound,we were sitting on the floor our back against the cold wall.

"I don't want anyone to know. I thought you guy hated him." I said then sigh.

"Well me and Michael are together now. Maybe you and Calum could have a chance,like us." She said.

I look at her shaking my head no. "He hates me now."

"No he doesn't... He probably still likes you. You should give him a chance."

"I don't know..." I mumbled. She put a hand on my shoulder,then squeeze it.

"It's you who decide Perrie. Think about it..." She smiled then stood up.

She held her hands to me. "Now let's go back there... They might be thinking we ditch them."

We got back on the table. Jesy ask if we're okay and we smiled at her nodding. I avoid eye contact with Calum. I'm still afraid he hates me...

Pretty short but hey guys.. I updated!!

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