Hate That I Love You

(23)

(Ashton)

I watch as Michael and Jade,feed each other cereals. They just look so happy and how Michael would boop her nose saying she looks so cute.

I sigh wishing it could be like that for me too. Having a girl to love and care for me. The one I could cuddle when she's cold,upset,or when she just feels like it. The one I could take care of and share my problems with-without her judging me,just accepting me for who I am. Loving me for who I am and not because of who she wants me to be...

I only have 1 past girl friend and let me tell you,it didn't turned out well. She start changing me to someone I wasn't. I thought she was doing it for my own good but when the guys confront me,I realize they were right. She wasn't what I want.

I broke up with her saying the reason why I really broke up with her. She start throwing insults at me saying I'm nothing but worthless without her. I believe her at first but the guys helped me out. I'm lucky to have them. Their always by my side...

"Lukey! Pwetty pwetty pwease..." I look over at Leigh-Anne and Luke.

Luke shook his head. "Leigh no,I'm not gonna take a selfie with you again."

Leigh-Anne pouted. "Luke,just one. For Instagram purpose." She whined.

"I don't really get why you love taking selfies.. It doesn't make sense." He groaned.

"The only thing that doesn't make sense is as to why you won't take selfies with me. It's just one photo..." She said then almost shove her phone on his face. His right,what's with girls loving selfies?

He sigh saying, "Fine!" She cheered and hug him by the neck mumbling 'thank you's' over and over. He laugh at her. "Okay okay... Don't choke me to death."

I smiled as they position for a selfie. They do look so happy now. I'm happy Luke got to get his best friend,even if they start hating on each other.

"Hey guys... Wanna go out for awhile?" Jesy ask.

You see we just reach the next stop (city). It's only 9:00 in the morning tho... The show starts at 8:00pm. So Melissa said we could go around the city,just not get lost in it.

"Oh great idea... I'm bored out of my mind." Jade giggle,Michael side hug her.

"You bored of me already?" Michael ask pouting,I swear he never act like this around us. He's now acting cute and all but he really look happy with her.

"I don't mean it like that,babe. I just wanna go out for awhile. It sucks being in a bus all day,don't ya think?" He nods then peck her forehead.

"Okay okay... Now stop being cute and get ready." Jesy rolled her eyes at them but I know she's happy for them,you can see her smile.

Why can't I have her? She's the girl I've wanted but can't have. Maybe it's because she's amazing and has everything while I'm just... Nothing.

"Hey Ash... You coming?" Jesy nudge me on the side.

"Uhm uh yeah... Sure." I said. She looks at me with a confuse look but I just ignored it.

-•-•-

We were walking down the streets and looking around. It's already 12:00 so we decided to eat at Nando's.

While waiting for our orders it was complete silence. It was really awkward. Well not really since,Leigh and Luke are laughing at something over their phones while Jade and Michael are deep in conversation.

"So uhm... What you guys thinking or talking about?" I said trying to break the silence between me,Cal,Perrie and Jesy.

"I was thinking about our performance for later. I wish people will love it." Jesy said,I just nod at her. I notice her frown.

I don't know why I'm being cold towards her. Yes,we accidently kiss but that's beside the point. After the incident she tried to talk to me like nothing just happened which is a good thing but I just ignore her.

She doesn't deserve to be treated this way. But why am I doing this to her? I don't make any sense at all.

"Calum... How are you mate?" I said then hung my arms around his shoulder.

"Not feeling well.." He answer looking outside the window.

"Why? Are you sick or something?" Leigh-Anne ask.

Calum shook his head looking at her. "It just hurts that the person you like push you away." Okay,where did that come from?

"Well maybe that person doesn't wanna get hurt." Perrie spoke all of sudden.

"It's not wrong to give someone a chance..." Calum said looking at her.

"She isn't sure if he deserves to be given a chance. She doesn't know him too well."

"Yet she said she likes him. And doesn't want another girl to steal him away from her."

"I didn't mean to say that! I told you I didn't know what came to my mind that time." She yell.

"But you lead me on! You make me think you actually like me. That whole night I was thinking about you! Thinking of the things that we could be. But you just have to ruin it in the morning saying it's all nothing... That you don't mean anything. Don't you know how much that hurts me? You don't... Cause you don't care and has no feelings! Your a bad person." I'm surprise that no one has decided to watch the commotion except for us in the table. Well that's a good thing actually.

"I have feelings Calum. I just don't want to get hurt." Perrie cried. "Your right... I am a bad person. You don't deserve someone like me... You deserve someone better." And she walk away crying.

The table was silent. No one dare to speak or say anything.

Calum sat back at his seat. He groaned in frustration. "I hate myself..." He mumble.

"I'm gonna follow her.." Jade said standing from her sit. But before she could leave Michael hold her back.

"Are you sure she's not gonna hurt you. She might be mad at you still." He said worried.

"Don't worry... I can handle this." She smiled at him taking his hands off her.

She walk away our table. Following Perrie to the bathroom. I hope they'll be fine...

I feel so fuck up right now... The Get Weird Concert here at our country (Philippines) is on Friday and I can't go cause "moms got no money" (reference *wink wink*)

Well get yourself ready for Jerrie next chapter!!! Vote/comment guys!!

Love ya...