You Found Me

Chapter 10

Chapter 10(not yet edited) 

A week had passed and my shoulder is so much better, it does not hurt anymore.

I seemed to survive without talking to Anthony and Megan. It's not that I dont want to talk to them, its just that I dont see them around. Even Anthony and I are living in the same house, i dont see him anywhere. He seems really good at avoiding me. And I have no fucking idea why he does. I feel bad for Megan though, she already left and I dont know when she'll be able to come here again. And Trent, I havent seen him anywhere too. I dont see him in our class either.

"Alex, Cal is already here." My mother shouted out from the kitchen. I quickly glance at the mirror to check my outfit. I wore a shirt, jeans, and flats. I grab my bag as i went out of my room, walked down the stairs.

I had promised Cal that we should talk about what happened to us, so this is the day. We both agreed to go to the nearest Mcdonald's, but at first, he argued with me that he wants to go to the Starbucks near the mall, but I said McDonald's is more affordable and Im really craving for their chicken. Then that was when he gave up.

I'm quite nervous to know what he's going to tell me. Im still not ready for this conversation. I think its nonsense to even have this conversation. I mean, it's been 3 years, I already have moved on, at least I think i have. But thats not the point, I already had forgiven him and its done. I understand him and thats it.

"Shall we go?" Cal smiled and handed out his hand for me to take.

Ok, maybe he's the one who didnt move on.

I nodded and took his hand to be polite. I swear I took his hand just to be polite, nothing more!

He leads the way out from our house to his car. We got in and off we go.

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The ride to Mcdonald's is silent, as usual, but not awkward. I felt comfortable even when he glanced at me from time to time. I just smiled at him and looked out the window. When we arrived, he parked his car to the spot near the entrance of Mcdonald's. He went out of the car fast enough that i couldnt see him went out and opened my door.

We are now in the Mcdonald's sitting and eating burgers. I know i know I said I miss their chicken so i ordered a chicken sandwich. Thank God Cal didnt say anything when I ordered.

"So," Cal crumpled the wrapper of his burger and looked at me, while I, on the other hand, having a large bite of my chicken sandwich. What a really good timing!! He laughed deeply and when i glared at him, he even laughs harder. So I just chew as fast as i can.

"Ok ok," He's trying to calm himself down. "Lets be serious now." I was about to reply but then I realise that it will only make him laugh again, well because I'm not done chewing and so my mouth is still full.

"Well," He clears his throat. "Uhmm..." he looks at me straight into the eyes and i think my heart just skipped a beat.

"I want to let you know that I'm really sorry for what I did," He looks down then looks at me again. I grab my drink because it feels like my food is so hard to chew. "I..I really dont know what happened. I felt pressured at that time and I panicked. I really shouldnt have left you and.."

"Stop," I put down my drink.

"I'm really sorry Alexis." He reached for my hand and rubbed it. He looks so sincere, it kills me that he's hurt.

I know that even though I've moved on, that deep deep down inside of me, I still love him. But there wont be an us again. I'm here for him just as a friend who cares, nothing more. And I dont see him as my boyfriend anymore and I definitely dont see us having a fruitful, joyful, and happy relationship.