It's been 5 years since she left, I tried to look for her but i didn't get any luck finding her. I've been miserable ever since she walked out of my door and I regret ever letting her leave. My mom told me what happened she was mad at me for letting her go. I was never the same.
Flashback
She asked me again if I love her, I wanna tell her I do but she just left, without letting me speak. I wasn't mad at her, I was just asking her what happened earlier, I was just worried about Trixie's condition. I was about to follow her when Trixie came out from the room and told me If i leave, she will kill her baby. She told me it's mine but I don't believe her. As much as i wanted to go after Alyssa, I can't let Trixie kill an innocent child, so I stayed. Even if Trixie's crazy I just can't leave her, she's been my girlfriend for 3 years and i was already ready to marry. But all of it changed when I met Alyssa. I can always look for Alyssa, she doesn't have any passport so that means she can't leave the country.
My mom called the same night asking for Alyssa because she can't reach her. When i told her she left, my mom got angry and cried. Asking me why did i let her go. That she's been maltreated by Trixie and that she's hurt and sick when she came earlier to visit her. She said a lot of things about what Trixie's doing to Alyssa but Alyssa never complained. I believe my mom because i saw Alyssa's bruises earlier.
How did I not see it before? I shouldn't have left her alone with Trixie. I shouldn't have let Trixie live with me. I should have broke up with Trixie the moment she told me she was pregnant.
Few weeks after Alyssa left, I told Trixie I can't be with her anymore, that i know her lies and that i know that the baby inside her is not mine. I told her I can't marry her but if she insist I will but it will be a miserable married life for the both of us. I told her i will never love her again, that we will only be married in papers. She cried and said sorry for the lies she told me, for hurting Alyssa because she knew I'm in love with her, that she's not really pregnant and all of it are lies. Trixie left and i haven't seen her ever since.
Everything changed when Alyssa left. My mom went to see me to gave me something from Alyssa. I thought she was with her but i was disappointed when she said it was only something she sent by mail without any return address. It was the title of her land in Batangas, there's a letter but no clue of where she might be. She only said that the land is mine because she can't repay me, and to take care of it because it's the only thing that her parents left her. I wished she was here so I can give it back to her. To tell her that i don't need it and i need her. But she wasn't here. I can't help but cry for wasting all the time that i have, to show her how much she means to me. I told mom what happened between me and Alyssa in Bohol and that she told me she love me and that I didn't tell her that i do.
My mom hugged me and said "it's going to be okay anak"
"No mom, it's never going to be okay" i told her.
I was always at the bar for the first few months, but i grew tired of it. I tried every sport, every strenuous activity that I can just to forget about her but nothing happened I can't remember if there was a time i stopped thinking about her.
I get pissed so easily. I've been shouting in the office almost everyday, even the littlest mistake I won't let it pass. I've fired and hired a hundred of staff in the past 5 years. Even Bei wanted to resign because she can't take me anymore but Thirdy asked her to stay saying that it's just a phase but it wasn't just a phase. I will never be back to my old self not until I'm with Alyssa again. Bei was mad at me because I was the reason why she lost one of her best friend.
When I'm home, I always stay in her room. All of the clothes I bought her is here. She didn't take any of it. Even the dress she was wearing the night i made love to her. I always look at it, every single night. Hoping to see her wearing it again.
