Our Infinity (A Ross lynch fanfiction)

Ahead Of Myself

Emily's pov

I woke up really early because I couldn't sleep. It is only like 6am and we have just arrived in Germany! I'm not really that tired so I decide to make breakfast. I start the frypan and begin to cook the food. Once everything is cooked I set the meal down onto 11 plates for everyone. I put them all on the bench and Alexa walks out half asleep along with Laura "good morning guys" I say as they mumble something I didn't understand so I just giggle at them. Rocky and Riker come out next... That's a surprise but then again it could just be because they smell food. Ellington, Ross and Calum come out after which is soon followed by Raini. Ryland and Savannah and we all begin eating breakfast. We are half way through eating when I start to scan the room realizing Rydel isn't here. I quickly get up from my seat because I wanted to make sure that she is okay. I am about to open the curtain when a very perky Rydel appears! "HOLA GOOD MORNING" she yells as everyone says good morning. "Happy 2 year anniversary Rossily!" She says coming in between us. I look at her confused. "What?" I ask "don't tell me you forgot- oh you did too! It's your two year anniversary dummies! This time two years ago Ross asked you to be his girlfriend!" She says. "Wait, has it really been that long? It feels like just yesterday" I say as Ross nods. I check my phone. "She's right" I say as everyone around the table looks at us amused. "Happy two year anniversary babe" I say leaning my head on his shoulder. "Happy two years bubs" he replies pecking my lips.

We all soon start to get ready because they have a daytime meet and greet at the venue before the show today. I put on some denim shorts along with a black singlet and add some white sandals. I just brush my hair out. I quickly apply some foundation, blush, eyeliner, eyeshadow, mascara and red lipstick. I then walk out of the bus and wait a good 10 minutes before everyone is ready. We walk in the back way to the venue and up the stairs, looking down on hundreds of fans. They are absolutely insane! The dressing room is actually one of the nicest I've seen on this tour so I just sit here enjoying it while R5 does their usual preparations and continue getting ready. We soon all head to the meet and greet! Heaps of fans come and go and they are still only halfway through the line. "Hey Rossy" some German girl says "hey, uh hey" he replies looking from the floor and to the girl "I can't wait to hear you sing tonight, you're so hot" she says flirtatiously! "Me, no!" he responds followed by a wink. She leans in for a hug, Ross hugs back as I watch on. She pulls out a slip and hands it to him "it's my number" she says "oh um thank you" he replies taking the slip from her. I walk away because I don't really understand what he is doing. I'm so used to fans like this, I don't know why this cut so deep. I walk until I am hidden behind the curtains of the stage and sit on the floor. I didn't even realize I am crying. "Em!" I hear someone say and turn around to see Alexa. "Hey lex" I reply making it look like I hadn't been crying and put a fake smile on my face. "I know you've been crying, I'm not stupid! I seen what Ross did and followed you" she says. "I feel like I've lost him, like I've lost him for good, how am I not good enough? Am I doing something wrong?" I sob "honey, just give him the benefit of the doubt on this one I think" she says hugging me as I look at her confused.

I quickly wipe my tears and we head back to dressing room where I put on a fake smile. "Hey hey guys" Rydel screeches after we have been in here for 20 minutes, they have just finished their meet and greet! "H-hey" my voice cracks "what's wrong Em?" She asks "nothing my t-throat just hurts" I say as she nods and then the rest of the band walk in along with Ryland, Savannah, Raini, Calum and Laura! "Hey baby girl" Ross pulls me off the couch and onto his lap. I just want to nuzzle into his chest but I can't even look at him. I rip myself from his grip and walk out the door, slamming it closed and leaving utter confusion in the room. I find a new hiding spot under the stage. I sit under there, anger filling my body and check my social media! I am tagged in a video on Instagram, I quickly check it. The caption reads: Ross Lynch just took my phone number, I'm not okay! It is the video of Ross taking the slip from her hand and thanking her. "ARGHHHHH" I scream and throw my phone.