Our Infinity (A Ross lynch fanfiction)

Some infinites are bigger than others.

-one week later-

This past week has been terrible. Yesterday was Reece's funeral and it was hard to lay our little boy to rest. How hold life ahead of him. We had spent the week in bed very little activity. I have barely eaten and I looked incredibly skinny. Stormie was taking us out tonight, we were all going to dinner. I threw on a black dress, flip flops and brushed out my matted hair. I didn't even wear makeup. Stormie told us we were leaving. We all got in the van. Rydel, Ellington, Savannah, Alexa, Riker, Rocky, Mark, Stormie and Ryland. I sat between Ross and Rydel. I looked over at her, she gave me a small smile. "hey, I'm really sorry for how I acted in the hospital" she whispered to me grabbing my hand. "it's okay Del, dont worry about it" I replied squeezing her hand. Ross intwined our hands, his touch shocked me and I turned to him, he pecked me on the lips for the first time in what felt like forever. I pulled him closer and kissed him for longer. Oh how I've missed his touch. We were soon at the restaurant and seated. A waitress came over and took our orders and then left. She bought our food back maybe half an hour later. I finally ate a full meal. 

We were all sitting there quietly talking. Ross had to go to the bathroom. I noticed he had been gone for like 15 minutes. I went to go check on him considering the last week. I just wanted to make sure he was okay. I turned the corner to see him kissing somebody. Our waitress. No fucking way. I walked back out  to the table "guys I need fresh air" I said to everyone and walked outside. I called a cab as quickly as I could and went home. Once I was there I packed a bag of clothes and shoes along with other personal items. I also packed one of Reece's teddies. I wrote a quick note for the bedside table 'I hope that kiss was worth it' and put my wedding ring that I thought I would never take off next to it. I quickly grabbed all of my money which was a lot from the dance studio, my parents, birthdays and other stuff. I looked around one last time and walked out the door. 

I don't know where I am going.

Or how long I'll be.

But I knew I needed to leave.

Ross's pov

Turns out that our waitress was a fan. While at dinner she motioned for me to come over. I told everyone I was going to the bathroom. We spoke around the corner for a bit and then, I kissed her. I don't know what came over me, I think things had just been so rough lately and I was enjoying her company. I knew I couldn't tell Emily. After I pulled back, slight regret running through my mind and I ran back to the table. "Uhm- where's Emily?" I asked "fresh air" Rydel said as I nodded. Ten minutes had passed and dad paid the check and we went outside. She wasn't outside.  I was worried, we all called her phone and it went to voicemail every time. Confused we drove back home, hoping she was there. I ran up to our room but she wasn't in there and the room looked tidy. I looked through the closet. A number of her clothes gone. The drawers. Same thing. I saw something glisten from the bedside table, so I walked over. A note that read 'I hope that kiss was worth it" and Emily's wedding ring sitting there. What? I'm confused. Then I realized. She seen me kiss her. I rushed downstairs with the ring and paper crying and handed it to Rydel who read it quickly "you did what?" She yelled pushing me against the wall gripping my shirt. The family gasping. "I k-kissed the waitress" I stuttered scared of Rydel as everyone glared at me in shock "you're disgusting, that is sick" Rydel said slamming me against the wall. Riker and Ellington grabbing her and pulling her off me.  "Your baby just passed away and you are stupid enough to to do this, now we don't know where she is, if she's okay or anything but why? Because she's not answering our calls" Riker yelled as everyone looked at me disgusted.

"Ross this is disappointing" my dad said as I quickly walked upstairs ashamed. I'm so stupid. I called her. I texted her. No answer at all. Mom came up a couple minutes later showing me her phone. 'hey I know you guys are probably worried, I'm safe and okay. I can't be there at the moment, I'm sure Ross will explain, thanks for everything, chat soon- Emily'.  She had texted mom to let her know she was okay but not where she was. Grateful that she was safe I thanked mom, her leaving my room. She could hardly look at me.

I pulled out my guitar and began writing a song. I didn't realize it was 3am when I had finished but I wasn't tired so I decided to film it and post it. I tagged Emily in it. It was about her.

Emily's pov

I've booked this little motel about 15 minutes from the Lynch's. The motel was pretty decent and had a kitchen type thing, a bathroom, tv, wifi and a queen bed. I had hundreds of notifications from the Lynch's but I just ignored, only messaging Stormie to let her know I was okay so she wouldn't worry. I pulled out my laptop and began scrolling through Facebook. Notification popped up. 'Ross lynch tagged you in a video'. I decided just to check it since he can't see if I did anyway. He began playing his guitar and singing notes.

I've seen you in my dreams,
You turn them to gold and shatter their bones. It's broken as we sing oh. We give up our hearts a shot in the dark.

And I know that there's something about you in the way that I want to there's something about you I'm drawn too but there's nothing I can do

I know you got away
I know you got away
All my diamonds consume with your face I tell myself that this feeling will fade. But I know and I know and I know that it's won't.

My nights begin to bleed.
But searching your name is part of your game. And the feeling of getting you is taking me under but the closer I'm getting to closure is taking me under

I know you got away
I know you got away
All my diamonds consume with your face, I tell myself that this feeling will fade. But I know and I know and I know that it won't.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na naahahahahahah

I know you got away
Your pulling me down yeh.
I know you got away all my diamonds consume with your face I tell myself that this feeling will fade. But I know and I know and I know that it won't.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na naahahahahahah

I knew it was about me. It was also a good song. It was around 3:30am now. I shut my laptop and laid in the bed, a shiver running down my spine. I miss him but I know we need a break from eachother. He cheated on me, right after we just lost our son. I fell asleep in no ones arms which made me feel cold and lonely.