Can't Get Enough

19.

19.

"A wallflower. You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand." (The Perks Of Being A Wallflower)

Jesy's POV

I want to be a singer. That's the ultimate goal. Me and Perrie, we're gonna make it big one day. But lately, I feel like Perrie has put that dream on the back burner because Zayn started using again.

I wish I was pretty enough to have a boyfriend.

I've always been a fat pig. Especially next to my skinny friends. I used to not mind, but then everyone started getting dates and cool homecoming asks, while I stood on the sidelines pretending to be happy. In essence, I was. But jealous, as well. Sticking my finger down my throat wasn't my favorite activity, but it worked. I Just wanted the feeling of falling in love. But seeing the way Leila is now, I'm glad I don't love someone.

I like her, I really do. I feel like her friendship is genuine. And she's got a little weight on her, like me. But lately, Harry's really been messing her up. Perrie doesn't really see anything wrong, but I do.

And then there's Liam.

He finally let go of that girl he met at a party, and lately, he's been really nice. But I know from previous experience not to let that get to me. They usually want Perrie. But I don't want to think of Liam that way. He's too sweet. A vibration from my iPhone jolted me out of my thought. I always think too deeply in the morning.

Liam-Breakfast? My treat (:

What a sweetie.

Me-we have school though.

Liam-well I already called you in tardy, so you have no choice but to say yes now.

Goodness gracious.

Me-alright, fine (: gimme ten.

I threw my phone on my bed and jumped off the duvet. I was going to go bummy, but that was no longer an option. I shook my hair out of its pony tail, and flipped my closet upside down looking for something to wear. I finally decided on slimming (hopefully) skinny jeans and a top with the Parental Advisory label on it. I heard a motor pull up in my driveway, blasting Dog Days Are Over. My phone lit up.

Liam-Florence, right?

He remembered all the small things I told him, like my favorite band. He was nice, so nice. I'm not used to attention.

I quickly grabbed my things, sprayed half a bottle of Couture Couture on me, and tried not to look too excited exiting from my porch. His smile etched itself in my memory as I entered the car.

"Picked up some Starbucks. White Chocolate Mocha, correct?" He handed me a venti as I smiled.

"Yes, thank you! You're so sweet!"

"I like making you smile."

As he backed out of my driveway, I started to think about the possibility of us. My mind told me to stop it, what were you doing?! You know this won't end well. But I decided to ignore it and see where this could take me.

Live for the moment, right? Sometimes wallflowers need their soak in the sun to grow.

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"Louis told me that him and Leila are getting pretty close." I felt my eyebrows rise. That was something I never saw coming. I knew they were talking about needle, but...

"Like, attracted to each other?" I ate a bit of my pancakes. Denny's wasn't crowded, and I loved the atmosphere. So warm and cozy. Christmas decorations were displayed around, which warmed my heart. I loved Christmas.

Liam nodded. "At first, I thought Louis was just trying to drug her up, but now it seems like he's actually falling for her. I'm surprised someone was able to crack him. Zayn, too."

"She's changing our group more than anybody knows." I commented quietly. A look of realization spread across his face.

"You know what, beautiful? You're absolutely right."

We see things. We understand.

"Make me a promise, alright?" I nodded earnestly. Yes, I'll marry you.

"Promise me you won't needle Jesy." His deep brown eyes bore into me.

"Please."

"I promise." I said, choking back tears.

It wasn't like I was going to needle because I felt like I lacked attention. But to know somebody cared...somebody actually cared about my well-being...it was refreshing. Is he falling, too?

He looked down at his breakfast, cheeks turning crimson.

"I think you're really great." He told his waffles.

"I love waffles too, Liam, but I don't think they can hear you." I teased.

He laughed nervously and met my eyes again.

"I can't help but get lost in them, Jesy. Ive never seen eyes so flawless. You're so intelligent, and I love that about you. Forgive me if I'm moving too fast, but I'm really falling for you."

My heart was stopping.

"If you would give me the pleasure of being my girlfriend, I promise I'll treat you like the princess you are. The princess you don't see."

I sniffled back tears, wishing I was someone else right now. Someone Liam deserved. Someone Liam would be proud to take to Denny's and confess his feelings for.

"If you're joking, it's not funny." My voice shook.

"Because I'm into you way too much by now to just back out." I only hoped these tears weren't messing up my eyeliner. He got out of the booth and pulled me up. He then pulled me into a hug. The word "hug" doesn't really do it justice. It was such a loving embrace it caught me off guard. I hugged him back.

And when we kissed, right there in front of our waitress, I felt all the fireworks I was supposed to. I now understood Leila's motives for doing all she did. Falling in love was a beautiful thing that also broke you.

I won't let you needle, Leila. I promise. You are Harry's princess.

I felt a chapter involving Jesy was needed, because she plays a big role in the climax. She's relatable, isn't she? Next POV is Louis, looking to be interesting (: XO