trust doesn't always come back

no one knows the ugly truth

I stretch and wince as I can still feel the pains from my dad's abuse. It's monday morning so school is here, I like going so I don't have to put up with my dad but I don't like going because everyone teases me. I pull the covers off me and shiver at how cold it is, my dad never puts the heating on so I am grateful for my collection of big ugly jumpers my granny got me for Christmas, I forgot to wear one last night though. I sigh as I sit in the mirror, taking over my appearance, my eyes have bags under, my hairs a mess and oh my god I can see a love bite. My eyes begin to water but I hold them back and start brushing my hair, I won't bother with making myself look good, I don't see any point. I pull my hair into a pony tail then walk over to my closet thinking of what I can wear. I decide on a white pair of skinny jeans and a light blue top. I rub a bit of foundation over my love bite to try conceal it, I just hope it stays that way. I creep downstairs to see who is home and I wonder if I can get breakfast before I can Leave for school.

"Scarlett" I jump and turn around to see my mum standing looking at me with a blank face.

"your father isn't here and I have made you some eggs on toast, but hurry, they will go cold" I mutter a thank you and my mum walks off with a fake smile plastered on her face. We used to be happy, until my father was caught cheating. That's when things got bad. I shudder as I reminisce in the memories, I push them aside as I walk into the kitchen, I sit at the table and wolf my break fast down. I quickly shove on my shoes and jacket, slamming the door as I leave. I take a slow walk to school, I only live 10 minutes from there so no need to rush.Within 10 minutes I reach the heavy iron gates and walk in as people stare and whisper. Why can't they just leave me alone? I continue walking with my head lowered, not trying to cause attention. As I round a corner, I bump into someone and end up on my arse.

"watch where your going freak" I look up to see the queen bitch Marty, I don't see why her parents called her that, bit of a boys name but oh well."s..s...sorry" I stutter, picking up my items that fell out my bag.

"oo. do I see a love bite?" My hand shoots to my neck, well that foundation didn't last long. I sigh to myself and go to walk off, only to get pulled back and thrown against the wall.

"who are you sleeping with?" she snarls in my face. Let me tell you something about Marty, you do not mess with her, she is an evil twisted witch, who won't be afraid to make your life hell.

"no one" I gulp, hoping she will just leave me alone. She cackles which hurts my ear, well she is practically right next to it.

"fine, don't tell me but I am watching you" With that she slams her fist into my gut which causes me to fall to the floor coughing, she struts off to her lackeys. I feel someone pull me up and I back off, expecting another blow.

"are you okay?" I look up to see a boy, he has blue eyes which are mesmerising and blonde sandy hair. I nod and start walking towards my first class. He runs up to me so hes walking by my side but I ignore his presence, it hurts too much, outside and inside to get too attached to someone.

"so.. how come you don't talk to anyone?" he gingerly asks.

"I choose not to" I snap back, hoping he would get the hint, he puts his hands up to surrender but still follows to me class. All through registry I can feel him looking at me so I look the other way, I hope he doesn't make the same mistake McKenzie did. McKenzie was my best friend, we used to hang out all the time, she didn't have any parents or siblings so I was like a sister to her. One night my father came banging on her flat door, she opened it not knowing who it was and he killed her in front of my eyes for messing with my family, her body was dumped but no one has reported her missing so she hasnt been found. I know where she is, I visit her 'grave' sometimes. I miss her alot, she stood against the bullies and stayed by my side until that unfortunate event. One day I'm hoping she's going to be found and justice will be done. I dont want a part of it, I would be the next in a grave, I just hope she forgives me. While in train of thought a peice of paper lands in front of me, I look around to see the boy looking at me, I sigh and open it.

"wanna go out tonight? from Charlie" I write a quick no and throw it back, as he opens it a deep frown settles on his face.

"meet me at dinner" he mouths when Mr.acercrombe turns his back. I blush a deep scarlet, ironic huh? and turn my head away. Lunch approaches fast, all through my two lessons I was bullied, by Marty and her bitches, Alexia, Lisa and Ursula. I try hold back the tears because I vowed myself to never cry in front of them. I slowly walk towards the oak tree behind the cafeteria, no one ever goes here so I slowly eat my lunch, my lunch consists of plastic sandwiches my dad gets from a 'friend' and out of date yoghurt. I see a shadow overloom me and look up to see no other than Charlie grinning down at me, I roll my eyes and look back towards my dinner.

"I will get through to you Scarlett, your like a rock, so defensive yet quiet" he says as he sits next to me.

"well I choose to be alone for a reason" I sigh.

"what's the reason?"

"haven't you seen what happens to me? do you want to get bullied?" he shrugs his shoulders and begins eating away at his sandwich which looks healthier than mine. I chew into mine trying not to gag, it tastes like sweaty armpit. I pull a disgusted face and see Charlie hand me his other half of sandwich.

"here, you eat this. that looks like cardboard" he says, looking deeply into my eyes for any kind of emotion. I whisper a thank you and devour the sandwich like a rabid dog. He chuckles beside me and shuffles closer. I freeze and he senses my unease. We eat dinner in silence and walk off to seperate classes.

School ends quickly which is good for me, but I still have to face the wrath of my dad. I begin to walk home and reach my front door, glad Charlie doesn't follow me. I sigh as I walk in, the atmosphere is tense, I know my dad will be somewhere. My dad is sitting on our old battered couch and I try to quietly sneak by him. The floor boards creak and this catches his aattention.

"Scarlett come here" he bellows, I flinch and walk over.

"yes dad?" I reply.

"how was school?" he asks, in a non caring manner.

"okay" I reply. He nods his head and gets up walking the inch of space we have between us. He begins stroking my hair and looking into my eyes, I look away and he strikes me across the face. I yelp and begin to taste blood.

"now get upstairs. I will be up soon, get all dressed up for me" he sternly whispers in my ear, I freeze but turn away to head into my room. He slaps my butt which makes my stomach curdle, I walk faster and break into tears as I reach my room. I cry for a good half hour then proceed to do as he says. He got me some "special" outfits, especially for him. You can guess what they consist off, thrilly slutty outfits which I have to wear, only the other day he raped me but I don't think it will stop there.