The Assassin (Shingeki no Kyojin/ Attack on Titan)

Non-Plot 5: Realizations

I brought my knees to my chest. All of the things I was feeling were overwhelming but I'd never felt so warm before. There was something different about that very moment, though. It was a feeling that Jean had not yet explained to me. I'd ask him some other time, maybe in the morning. We had stayed up late, and he feel asleep on my shoulder with his arm strewn across my waist. His slow and steady breathing puffed against my collarbone and I rested my cheek against his head. My eyelids grew heavy with sleepiness.

The only things keeping awake were my thoughts on this brand new feeling.

There was definitely a caring aspect to this impression. I cared about this boy. But that was not new, I definitely cared about other people.

Quentin, Petra, Levi.

Armin, Sasha, Eren, Mikasa, and Connie.

I even took on the responsibility of caring for Bertholdt and Reiner. 

But I supposed that I cared about Jean in an entirely different way. Maybe it was the way Mikasa and Armin cared about Eren; wanting to protect to him and not being able to bear losing him because he was all they had left.  But I didn't exactly think that way of Jean, at first.

When I had joined the Scouting Legion, I had presumed that I would be just what I already was to everyone else I had ever encountered: a single page and not a whole book. And I was like that because that was how I saw other people. They walked in and out of my life and so I walked in and out of theirs. 

Jean, though... He taught me that people weren't so simple. That I wasn't so simple. 

But I didn't know Jean the way he knew himself. I didn't have control over whether or not he would be a single page or the subject of a whole anthology. It scared me to think that in his view, he could leave me and not care; but in my view, I'd lose him and... all of my feelings.  

And so I had this impression, before finally dozing off, that for the first time... I didn't want to just pass him by. I wanted to be everything that he already was to me and more.

This sensation had to have a name though...

I gently held his hand before falling asleep. 

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Okay, so this chapter was really short. I hadn't planned it out at all but I realized the last couple of chapters were mostly dialogue so I wanted to kind of make it apparent that Georgie is starting to think and explore the miracle of human complexity as she journeys through more uncharted territory.

And in school, we got iPads so I doodled a little something for you on Sketchbook Pro :] -->

So I guess this is goodbye for now, since I've got to get going on the next five chapters. It will definitely be a while because I've kind of been getting a late start on college apps *cringes violently* i don't even want to think about it holy crap

I have also been planning an Eren story but I'm not sure if I can handle more than one story so, yeah, that won't be up for a LONG time.

Alrighty, then. I hope you've enjoyed the story so far! If so, let me know, if not, it's cool :]

See y'all in few weeks!

-Jo 

P.S. I have calcuated that about 8 people are reading this. *whispers* you 8 are my favorites, not that that has any value but ilysm <3