Please... (Mavi/PTX)

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Diverse emotions consumed me from the inside as I pushed Scott away and stumbled up the stairs. He couldn't be dead! He just couldn't.. I had no opportunity to say goodbye. To wish him a wonderful stay in heaven. I was happy he could finally be where he wanted to be but in the meantime I was heartbroken. Why didn't he wait for me? Wasn't I supposed to die instead of him?

I reached the bedroom and mentally prepared myself to see his lifeless body, how it laid there, pale and unmoving. I've seen him like that before but last time..last time I saved him.. or didn't . I took him away from his tormentor but didn't set him free. Now he was and he managed to do it himself. Did he find the tools he needed in the bathroom? The ones I've thought about before? I shook my head and wiped away the tears which began to form ever since I left Scott standing on the door. He didn't ask where I've been, he didn't ask if I was okay. He cried over Avi so.. he took the position I was in? Did he replace me? Crazy.. that's what I was going to be if I didn't stop thinking like that.

Kirstie walked out of the bedroom, her eyes red and puffy, her hands shaking as she bit at her fingernails. She didn't look up once, causing her to walk straight into me and to stumble back once she noticed my presence.

"Mitchie.."

Her whisper was so light and barely audible, it send shivers down my still frozen back. The tone in her voice showed so much emotion, so much sadness and sorrow. Avi and I had created a lot of mess in these past few days. We've caused so much heartbreak and I was worried my friends would drown in their own tears sooner or later. She took my hand and guided me inside the bedroom in which I didn't even want to go. I expected him, laying on the bed, staring with his empty expression towards the ceiling, his chest still, his heartbeat gone. Nothing of that. Avi was gone but he wasn't dead.

"K-kit..w-where is he?"

She had no instant answer, shook her head and buried her face in my chest where my heart beat faster. He had left this home, he left freely and without telling my friends. If we didn't know where he went how were we supposed to find and help him. Then I stopped my thoughts.

He didn't want to be saved.
He didn't want our help.
He had already made plans and we weren't in it.

I pushed Kirstie back a little and looked her deep in the eyes to find any hints, anything about his disappearance. She knew something I was certain.

"When did you see him for the last time?"

I was suddenly calm, calmer than I've ever been. I knew that I wouldn't be able to make any moves or draw any conclusions with a distressed mind. He was my focus and I had to go step by step. She sniffed and proceeded to turn and walk downstairs towards the second bathroom in Scott's house. This one was a lot bigger. Kirstie told me that he went inside and never came back out, the only way he could've escaped was by climbing through the window and landing in the small garden. But then? Where did he go after he left the house? I walked inside the bathroom and eyed the different items which laid onto the ground right before the window.

"We didn't move anything. Maybe you can detect what he meant."

I kneeled down and sat in front of them. Five tools in a row, each one of them in their destined positions. Instantly I knew which one of them was more dangerous than the rest. I knew he found most of them inside this house and the bathroom but some of them shocked me when I asked myself where they came from.

A lighter
Chord
Blades
Pills
A gun

Tools for suicide, tools to end someone's life and yet I knew that three of those had been used on Avi without his consent already, not through his own hands. The next two? I could only guess...
I looked up at the window, stepped towards it and glanced at the snow now falling heavily again. I knew where he went and what his plan was and it made my stomach turn. Without an early warning I leaned over the toilet bowl and emptied my stomach. Knowing what he had planned made me feel ill. Kirstie rushed to my side, rubbing my back as Scott and Kevin entered the bathroom with questioning looks on their faces.

"I know...where he went.."

While they began to become curious I went on feeling more miserable than before. I turned towards the toilet one last time. Moments later I proceeded to solve a small part of the mystery.

"He went to his father,so he would kill Avi."

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#Yanie