The daily life of a scene girl (Ambers story)

ch 6. Meaningless mistake

The daiy life of a scene girl (Ambers diary) chpter 6.

Meaningless mistake

I had decided to wait a little while before going down to see if my mom was alright, I could hear her sobs from all the way upstairs and across the hall, I have waited enough, I got out of bed my face bright red, my makeup smeared all over, I didn’t care, I slowly opened my door making it creek loudly but my mom sobs were louder then any squeak of a door. I walked across the hall and took the stairs one by one, my mom was bent over herself with her head in her hands.

“mom?” I asked in a scratchy voice. “Mom I’m sorry, really I am”

“Amber” she jumped her face was also a blotchy red, she had a tissue in her hand, she placed it on the table next to her and took another one from the box wiping away her tears, I had just noticed James was sitting in the corner of the room talking to himself.

“Amber why are you crying? No one cheated on you”

“Well actually dad cheated on all of us, its not just you”

“Amber I know you were doing the right thing but I can’t talk right now”

“what is her problem” I thought, “I get she’s mad and sad or whatever but I don’t get why she always has to such a bitch to me when she doesn’t want to talk, but when she’s in a good mood she’s all hug and kisses!” I bumped into Sage on the way back up the stairs.

“Hey what was all that screaming? Is mom ok?” he asked worried.

“She’s fine, she just doesn’t want to be talked to right now” I answered walking back up to my room, I suddenly felt the erg to throw up, I stopped and took in a couple deep breathes, and the feeling went away, I was starving lately, and I never eat, I decided to fight the want for food and stuck it in the back of my mind, I got another erg to throw up only this time I didn’t do so well holding it in, I ran for the toilet and just made it in.

“What’s wrong with me?”

I thought as I flushed the toilet, I went over and looked in the mirror, my red splotchy face was now glowing in the li… suddenly I stopped cold in my thoughts, eating, sickness, the erg to sleep, emotions, and now the glowing, I ran to the phone and dialed Sadie’s number as fast as I could messing up a few times. It finally started to ring.

“Yo, yo, yiddity, yo, yo?” she said after the third ring.

“Sadie, I’m in desperate need of help, legit help not boy drama help legit fuck me my life is over help”

“Amber?” she asked confused, like my little speech wasn’t enough.

“No it’s the evil Easter bunny, give me your eggs” I nervously said. “Listen dude you need to get your ass down here right fucking now because I need you like oh I don’t know now!!!”

“What is this about?”

“No time just get your fucking ass down here, ill explain when you get here” with that she hung up and all I could hear is the dial tone mocking me, mocking my life, useless and annoying, something that could easily be shut off but couldn’t be turned away from, something that always seems to end something good. About 15 minutes later the front door buzzed, I ran down the stairs and before Sadie could even step inside I grabbed her arm and dragged her upstairs to my room and threw her onto the bed.

“Whoa take it easy, we haven’t even had our first date” she joked, I wasn’t in the mood for joking.

“Ha-ha very funny, but I’m seriously flipping the fuck out right now, I don’t know what to do its not even the slightest bit funny.