The daily life of a scene girl (Ambers story)

Ch. 17 Mixed Emotions

the daily life of a scene girl

chapter 17

-mixed emotions-

“You need to remember that none of this was your fault.” Brody said, I didn’t feel like talking and he could sense that, I just nodded along to what he was saying.

“Were going to get through this together, I promise I won’t leave you” I looked up at him all teary eyed, I still couldn’t calm down, I was too upset to calm down.

“R-r-really?” I stuttered in between shaky breathes. He smiled softly stroking my cheek pushing a piece of hair behind my ear only making it fall back into place followed by a larger clump covering my eyes.

“I swear” he looked me in the eyes with true tenderness, sending a flood of warmth through my veins, he held me tightly against him trying to comfort me as I cried.

“You cry a lot don’t you” he said trying to make the moment less awkward and depressing making me giggle.

“I live a pretty fucked up life” I proclaimed, to Brody and myself, I already knew my life was messed up but I had to remind my self a lot.

“Well were just gonna have to fix that wont we?” I couldn’t stop crying, emotions and memories rushed through my mind clogging my thoughts making my head spin, every thought had seemed to transfer into tears, I couldn’t stop them, at the same time I didn’t want to stop them, some warm thoughts of my dad popped into my mind making me even more disturbed, I haven’t thought about my father in a while and I almost felt bad, I slid out of Brody’s grasp and got to my feet instantly falling to the floor due to all the spinning, Brody got down next to me, hesitant to touch me, he just held out his hand in a way of asking if I needed help, I denied it and we just sat there. Me just bawling my eyes out and Brody innocently watching me, helplessly not doing anything, he let me put my head in his lap just letting me cry, knowing there was nothing to do about it.

“Brody, your dad’s home and he needs to talk to you” his mom called from downstairs.

“Go ahead, I’ll wait here, I don’t want to go down there looking like this anyways” I smiled calming down a little.

“Thanks, I’ll be right back” he ran out of the room and downstairs, I wiped my eyes, I wasn’t wearing makeup so I didn’t have to worry about fixing it, I sat there and pulled all my thoughts together, organizing them in the back of my mind, I suddenly heard screaming, I hopped off the bed and quietly walked over to the door, not knowing if they could hear me moving around from downstairs, I pressed my ear against the door and listened intently.

“I can’t believe you Brody” his dad yelled. “I can’t believe you would do this to me, betray me like this!” I had no clue what they were talking about but it didn’t sound to good.

“I don’t care what you say, ok? I don’t want to be with Destiny anymore, we broke up for a reason dad? She was a annoying bitch who just used me to get me to sleep with her”

“Well at least you were actually with a women!” his dad said snidely, I fought every inch of blood in my veins to hold my self back from going down there and punching him in the nose.

“Why are you so obsessed with me and my virginity?” there was a awkward silence, I wanted to hear this.

“Because I think it’s really sad that your almost 18 and still a virgin” I was totally confused.

“How do you know I am still a virgin?” he had a good point, I mean obviously no one knew about what had happened a few hours ago.

“When was the last time you even kissed a girl, or touched one?” his dad was really starting to piss me off.