The daily life of a scene girl (Ambers story)

Ch.18 life, i thought i had it under control

Daily life of a scene girl

-Chapter 18. life, i thought i had it under control-

“Hey, find anything yet?” Brody asked scaring the crap out of me, making me jump.

“Sorry” he smiled sitting in the chair next to me, I flashed a smile back.

“Yea, the cheapest one is Women’s Health svc in Boston, it’s ligit the only one I can afford, I can barely afford anything now that I have Courtney” I answered back, Brody sighed.

“Boston huh? Couldn’t find anything in Worcester?” he had a good point, we did legitimately live a bridge over right next to Worcester.

“I looked, this was the cheapest, I went as far as New York but this was closer and again something I could afford” I sighed too leaning back in my chair, Brody out his hand on my leg and squeezed it gently.

“Hey look at me” I looked up and started into his big beautiful, sparkling eyes. “We can get through this together, just you and me, I’m not going anywhere” this made me feel 100 times better about this whole situation.

“I just wish I didn’t have to do this, I really don’t want to” I tried to hold back my tears but they burned my eyes, I let them lose, they stung my face as they rolled down my cheeks, a subtle smile reappeared on Brody’s perfect face as he pulled me into a hug, my face buried in his warm stone hill sweatshirt, one hand was gently rubbing my back, the other was smoothing out the hair on the back of my head, I sat there bawling my eyes out, sniffling wildly.

“Remember when we first met?” he asked randomly “and I made a idiot of myself by telling you that you had nice racks?” I laughed, continuing to sniffle he was trying to make the moment less tense.

“Yea, that was funny, I thought you were trying to be all cool guy jock like”

“Yea, for some odd reason I thought you were into guys like that, but then I saw you with Aaron and…well come on he’s no jock” he laughed, I laughed along.

“Yea, no he’s not even close”

“When I pictured you with a guy, I always pictured you with someone, oh, I don’t know, tall, blonde, handsome, maybe someone who isn’t anorexic skinny, someone who has respect for you, and maybe someone who doesn’t wear skinny pants so skinny you can see a little more then you need too” he was trying to cheer me up and it was working.

“Yea I see what your trying to do but it’s not really working, Aaron is and always will be Courtney’s dad, there’s nothing I can do about it, I looked up from his chest, that subtle smile was still spread across his face, my erg to kiss him was growing stronger with every breath he took, every time he blinked, I wanted him, I needed him, I went for it, I got off the chair I was on and jumped into his lap taking him by surprise, with full force the spinning chair rolled back and hit the wall making him jerk forward, I kissed him madly, the hunger grew stronger, I knew I really shouldn’t be doing this but I didn’t care anymore, I wanted him so bad it hurt, my heart ached every time we had to say goodbye, I knew it killed him every time I even said Aaron’s name, every time I kissed him, he knew I had to just go along with it, it wasn’t a game, but he knew I didn’t want to which was what killed him the most.

I took no time pulling the sweatshirt over his head, throwing it across the room, then again with his red Aero postal t-shirt, throwing that in the same place as the sweatshirt, he picked me up and brought me over to the bed, laying me down carefully, before he went any further he quickly slid off my black converse sneakers and just simply dropped them on the ground we continued to kiss each other, making everything as comfortable as we could for both of us, we were both in a really awkward situation