The daily life of a scene girl (Ambers story)

Ch.25 Second Blessing

After our little fight I realized that I didn’t want to lose Brody over something so stupid, if he wants to join the military then he can join the military.

Today was different though, today was the day we told Brody’s family, sisters and parents that he was going into the military, he wasn’t looking forward to it, between his fathers bitterness, his mothers fragile heart and his sisters extreme love for their brother, it wasn’t going to be easy, but that’s what I’m here for.

“So how are you feeling Amber dear?” Ana asked, not really knowing why she was here, like this, Ever since we got engaged Brody’s mother has been extra nice to me, it was hard to tell if it was a act, or if it was pure love.

“I am feeling fine” I lied, to be honest I wasn’t feeling all that great but at least I had a answer for it.

“Well the reason we came here is because I have something important to tell you” he looked at me, and I sent off a warm smile, shaking my head the tense in his shoulders loosened.

“I’m joining the military” he just spat out, Brianna almost jumped from her chair.

“BRODY NO!” Brianna screamed, she looked at mea with fire in her eyes.

“You!” she screamed, voice cracking from holding back her tears.

“Me?” I asked, she burst into tears.

“Y-y-yes you! Why didn’t you stop him from doing this, you’re the reason he’s going to die!” she screamed, I looked up at Brody confused, he wasn’t even going to bother cheering her up, instead he held me closer, knowing I was feeling a lot more pain then her at this moment.

“Brianna, you really need to calm down and keep your mouth closed” he demanded.

“Brody, your such a ass, don’t tell me what to do!” she screamed back.

“You don’t know what it’s like to come from a broken family! You don’t know what it’s like to lose a father!” I snapped, screaming at her, not caring what anyone thought of me in that moment.

“Is that your excuse, oh poor me, my daddy died, I had family issues, boo fricken hoo, step into my shoes and feel what I feel” without thinking I pushed up my sleeve and showed her my arm, all sliced and scared, her facial expression dropped.

“You say I don’t know what it feels like, well here’s the proof”

“You have issues!“ Brianna shouted banging her hand on the table, Brody jumped from his chair and got in her face.

“Whoa, what’s going on?” his mom asked, Brody ignored her.

“I have put up with your complaining and your wining, every SINGLE boyfriend you have had, I have hated, but did I complain? I said nothing and I would appreciate it if you would do the same!” I rose from my chair and took off, all this fighting was too much, I couldn’t take it, flashbacks from all different parts of my life came into view, my fathers death, the day Courtney was born, the first fight I witnessed at Brody’s house, tbut the hardest one was the first time Aaron ever hit me.

I ran outside and sat on the stone step, I heard small, small spaced footsteps behind me.

“I’m sorry that happened” Ana said sitting down next to me.

“It seems like every time we have you over it ends in a fight” I gave off a weak smile, she wrapped her arms around me as I started bawling my eyes out.

“It’s okay” she shushed.

“No it’s not, I’m losing my best friend” I cried “my future sister-in law hates me, and I don’t even think I can go on anymore, everything is just slamming back at me, all the memories, the pain, suffering” she stoked my hair as I sniffled and cried even more.

“To be honest, you shouldn’t care what Briana thinks of you, she does like you she just isn’t taking this whole military thing to well, and your not losing your best friend, your journey as a couple has just begun” I didn’t say anything, I just sat there and continued to cry, I heard Brody come into this mess, but I ignored him, I ignored everything, I felt Ana’s hands depart from my shaking body.

“Take care of her” she said softly as she went back inside, in place of her hands were Brody’s comforting embrace.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, I didn’t take it to mean anything because he knew what was wrong.

“Everyone hates me!” I stutter, his arms wrapped around me tighter.

“That’s not true”

“Yes it is, but it’s not the fact everyone hates me it’s the fact that my life is in a huge mess I can’t fix, I can’t get Aaron out of my head” Brody sighed at the mention of his name, I knew it hurt him as much as it hurt me.

“Well” he sighed pulling me closer so there was no more space in between us.

“He’s gone now, he will never hurt you again”

“Really?” I asked, I felt so pathetic, like a mindless 5 year old asking the worlds most ridiculous questions.

“I promise” he whispered kissing the top of my head, resting his chin on the top of my head I sighed with relief and smiled.

“Hey, you wanna get out of here?” he asked, I simply nodded my head as he stood up, pulling my hands with him, pulling me into a tight hug.

“I love you and always will” he whispered, kissing my forehead, I looked up and he moved from my forehead to my lips, just as I think I couldn’t get closer to anyone I had second guessed myself.

　

***

Brody took me to a little park right outside of a small boardwalk, it reminded me of New Jersey, we hung around and talked for hours, we became closer.

I got from Brody’s lap and walked towards a railing, he got up and followed me without question.

“Bet you can’t walk across to the other side” I challenged, he smiled.

“Maybe” he climbed on top and tried walking to the other side, halfway there he jumped down from losing his balance.

“That’s it?” I mocked, “I can do it watch” I took off my shoes and got onto the cold metal railing, my toes clung together , my focus perfect, arms reached out to both sides “I am a bird” I thought to myself as I slowly made my way to the other side, excited I jumped down, turned around and walked back the same way as before, a thunder storm rolled in as it had planned to.

“I think we should leave” Brody suggested.

“No way” I smiled.

“Your not wearing shoes, your going to get hit by lightning” I ignored this continuing to walk back and forth on the railing.

A crack of lightning had made its way through the sky, startling me, I lost my balance and fell back, only to be caught by Brody’s strong grip, the storm cleared up, being only a fast moving wind storm, I was too caught up in the moment to notice.

“Thanks” I said with a smile, my arm linked around his neck.

“Any time” he winked, with a tight yet comforting grip on my arm he pulled me in and kissed me, his other hand holding up my legs, he walked us over to a tree and sat down underneath it putting me in his lap, but something on my wrist distracted him, he looked down only to be reminded of my scars.

“It’s okay” I assured, he kissed my wrist and looked at me.

“You are beautiful, you are unique, and you are my best friend” he reminded.

“I know” I looked down.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

“I have to tell you something” I notified.

“Anything” he said sweetly, I took his hand and placed it on my stomach, this was a instant hint, he looked at me with questioning eyes.

“Yes” I said, he smiled and pulled me towards him, I could tell he was happy, I was happy.