Hummingbird | Sequel to Butterfly [A Harry Styles Fanfiction] {Book 2}

Chapter 10: Easier Said Than Done

Harry's POV:

I often wondered what my life would be like if I hadn't asked Cami to move in with me when I did.

Would we still be together?

Would she have still chosen to go to San Francisco?

Would we have moved in together by now?

Those thoughts often haunted my mind and I never wanted to admit out loud that I still thought this way about the girl who cheated on me. It was almost pathetic to think that I was still hung up on her but had yet to manage to say a single word to her that involved our relationship. I wanted to talk to her when she had come to visit, if anything for me to get some sort of piece of mind that I could move on, but I didn't have the balls to do it until it was too late and she was already gone.

Charli encouraged me to just bite the bullet and call her even though she was hours away, but I couldn't have this conversation with her over the phone.

What would I even say?

I didn't know what I even expected from speaking to her again or what I wanted from it, but I couldn't help but feel like I needed to do it for some reason. It was easy to avoid her and pretend like she didn't exist when I hadn't seen her in four months, but since she came back, it was like she was all I could think about anymore.

I hated it.

I hated that after all she had done, deep down, I still wanted to forgive her somehow. I couldn't fight this feeling that my part in all of this is what caused her to even be near Liam in the first place. I almost wanted to believe that I could forget that it happened just so I could be with her again.

But I knew that was easier said than done.

Maybe I could one day forgive Cami, but I could never forget what she had done.

The only thing I could do for now was try and rid her from my mind, at least for a little bit, as I headed to Bandit to get some things done for our annual Halloween bash this weekend.

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Work had proven to be a good way to keep myself busy these last few months and from keeping my mind from wandering to Cami. Since Caleb had been spending much more time at home with Charli before the twins were born and now that they were here, work kept me extra busy and was a welcome distraction to get me out of my own head.

From planning future events, to budgeting for the month, or filling out paperwork, it was all a good way to keep my mind too occupied to drift too far from anything else.

I was just going through my checklist to prepare for the Halloween party this weekend when Caleb surprisingly burst through my office door. He hadn't been to Bandit in almost a month and I was beginning to get used to running the show on my own while he was gone.

He looked exhausted, with purple bags under his eyes and his blonde hair haphazardly sprawled against his face, I was surprised he was even standing up straight, much less in for work.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, slightly confused.

Caleb slumped down in the chair in front of me and covered his face with his hands.

"I just needed to get out of the house," Caleb moaned.

I hadn't been over much in the last week, but the twins always seemed like such well behaved babies. Then again, I only saw them a few hours at a time, opposed to 24/7 like Caleb and Charli did.

"Daddy duty weighing on you?" I teased, minimizing the screen on my computer for the time being.

Caleb's face shot up and he seemed immediately awake at my words.