Conflict Reloaded

Chapter 6: Makes No Sense

(Jahlil)

I walked into the house and slammed the door.

"Boy wha-"

"YOU WERE HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH REGGIE?!"

She spit out whatever she was drinking all over the coffee table. She started looking all nervous and shit.

"You slept with a man who raped four women! Maybe even more! Are you insane?"

She stood up and slapped me in my face.

"You do not talk to me in that tone! Yeah I did it, so what? I am a grown ass woman."

"I can't do this anymore. I need to get away from you before I go to jail. Why the fuck would you cheat on granddad like that?"

"He cheated on me with Kelly while she was still alive!"

"That doesn't justify what you did Grams! He slept with Kelly and you slept with a rapist? Two negatives might make a positive in math, but not in this situation. I can't believe you don't talk to my mom anymore all because she eliminated a problem! He deserved that shit."

"No he didn't no person deserves death! Your mother is gonna go to Hell for killing him."

"And he already fuckin there! Don't worry about where my mother's gonna go. Worry about your damn self. I can't believe you."

I shook my head then went over to the door.

"Grandma guess what, he tried to rape me too. The muthafucka was gay. You better get yourself tested instead of trying to defend him like a damn idiot."

I won't ever forget that night. My grandma Kelly was at her restaurant. Something happened and she had to go see about it. He ran me a bath. Long story short, he touched on me and he tried to give a little boy oral sex. Dirty muthafucka.

(Few days later)

People don't even look my way too long anymore. They remember the ass whoopin' I gave Kyle. His bitch ass changed schools. Good for him, cause I sure wasn't about to.

"Hey Jahlil. Where you headed?"

I closed my locker to see Monica standing in front of me. She got that ass beat, so she only got three days of in school suspension for the fight between her and Mali.

"Nowhere. Malia has to take a test, so I'ma chill in the library until she's ready to go."

"Why everything gotta be about her? Why you ain't just say you was going in the library?"

"I'm sure you would have asked me why. That's why I included that part. Nica you used to be cool now all you do is nag me. Speak to me when the old you come back. I'm sick of you females talkin' that slick shit to me."

I walked down the hall and took a left to get to the library. I sat at a table and began working on what I started in advisement.

(Letter:

Dear Mom,

Hey. How are you? Alright I hope. Things get harder and harder for me each day. Trying to keep a sane mind state. I want to apologize to you for the way I treated you when I visited you. It's just been so long. I miss you so much. I love you too mom. No matter how upset I might get with you, I have a love for you that's unbreakable.

It's nice to see that you still look the same as you did when I was a child. So beautiful. I don't want to make this letter too long, so I'll end it here. In due time, I will be back to see you.

Love, Jahlil

P.S. Love you....MOMMY!)

I shook my head then reread the letter. I didn't mention a damn thing about Reggie like I wanted to. Oh well, some things are better if they're left in the past anyway.