MaNan: Unadulterated Love|| Completed

32. Discovering 'You'!

Note: Who is loving the update spree for this story? Finally, my laptop is working, and I can easily access the previous draft, hence the super fast updates! Enjoy!

~ Love is the best when two people become 'we', without loosing their sense of individuality~

" umm...", she was still fumbling, confused with the answer. And it was ought to be, for no one had ever asked her a similar question before.

Manik held her hands tightly in his hands and looked straight in her eyes, eyes interlocked and it was like she was deriving all the needed courage from him. A small smile begin to form on her face, and it reflected on his too.

" Why don't we leave this topic here only?", Nandini asked feebly already knowing in her heart Manik won't agree, but one try won't harm, would it? He glared at her in response, and
Nandini eventually sighed, preparing herself to reveal her innermost thoughts.

" I don't have a proper answer to your questions Manik. I don't know. Really! Honestly, when and if I am hurt na, i eventually realize that nobody actually understands that, and even if they do, they dont care enough to ask me twice about it. Most of the times, they don't know only what exactly hurt me! I don't know how to tell you when I feel hurt. The worst fear in my mind is that everyone will leave me at the end of the day. May be because I am boring or I am not the way usually people are. I am afraid to mingle because I know people will notice I do not like their ways or enjoy it like they do. I am afraid of lots of things in my life. Sometimes even I do not know those things properly because I have always tend to ignore them. I have ignored my fears, my desires, my wishes everything. You always tell me how emotional I am but sometimes I feel like I am emotionless. Nothing affects me at times. I do not care about anything at those times. I am just...plainly selfish! And these many variety of feelings confuse me...that is why I run away from myself. I don't know...I am just blank at times", Nandini spoke in a stuttering manner and broke into tears. Manik said nothing and held her hand in this. For the first time ever, she was acknowledging these things, and they were ought to be jumbled. This innocence that she had, was what made her stand out too.

" I have never asked for anything Manik, just simply a little love from those who are important to me. I always focused on my studies because I knew that made my parents happy. I always did small things for my sister because I knew that will make her happy. I cared for my friends, sometimes it seemed extra care too, I know, but it was only because I understand how I feel when I am sad. I want someone to be there with me, so I try and be there with them, so that they don't have to feel the way I do. Every time whatever I did was because I am very selfish! I want them to love me and I do not know-don't know what to say...I am...", Nandini could not continue more and ran into the attached washroom in the room.

She broke down into a pool of tears in front of the mirror and let everything go with the flow. A few minutes later she felt two thumbs wiping off the tears and she knew who it was. Manik turned her towards him and wiped off all the tears off her face and dropped a kiss on her forehead. Then he dragged her back into the room and again made her sit on the bed. He kneeled down in front of her and again smiled at her.

" you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, do you even realize that? And you are not at all selfish. If everyone starts expecting love for love na, it will be business and not the pure, unadulterated love. What you do, is out of the love you have for all your loved ones. And also, somewhere you will have to take an effort Nandini, you need to let people know that something hurt you. You can't pretend like things are fine, and simultaneously expecting us to be there for you! Its a two way road! Also, from today, you will share with me every single detail of the talks you have with your mind and the conflicts of your heart. Everything. Let it all out and I promise I will be there to listen hamesha, we will together discover you, the real you- from your favorite colours to your favourite dishes, everything! It's not you and me anymore, its US, okay? ", he explained with a cozy smile and Nandini looked at him in amazement. She held his hands tightly and he got up and sat beside her. She said nothing for a moment but shifted close to him and silently kept her head on his chest. He wrapped an arm around her and both sat in silence. After sometime Nandini stirred a little and kissed lightly on his chest and looked up at him to find him already staring at her with love in his eyes. She smiled and kept her hand over his heart.