You are Beautiful (Support Book)

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Hey guys! It's been over a year, oh my gosh. I am so sorry. I hope to be getting back into weekly updates, I have been working on some. This one regards sexuality and what is considered normal. I might also do one on the actually concept of sex, in my opinion, but I am not sure yet. Comment what you think. Also, this chapter is in all caps because I wrote this mid-rant about something else, and I thought, hey, this might be something I could use for that Support Book that I was writing. Lol. Enjoy. 

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WARNING: THIS CHAPTER WAS WRITTEN BY ME MID RANT AND INVOLVES VULGAR LANGUAGE AND FREQUENT SWEARING. I EXPLAIN FORMALLY AND CLARIFY SOME THINGS THAT MAY COME ACROSS MEAN AND WRONG AT THE END, SO PLEASE READ THAT IF YOU ARE DISTURBED BY ANYTHING YOU READ. 

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GODDAMN, ALMOST FORGOT A QUOTE. HERE YOU GO:

"They laugh at me because I am different, I laugh at them because they are all the same."

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p.s. i found another quote that kind of goes with this but im going to save it because it is more somber, and i was to out of control when i wrote this. 

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OKAY SO BASICALLY MOTHER DECIDED TO TELL ME I SHOULD DO TENNIS BECAUSE 'ITS WHAT NORMAL PEOPLE DO. NORMAL PEOPLE DO SPORTS' LIKE WTF

 I CANT EVEN

 I CANT EVEN DECIDE IF ITS MORE INSULTING, BULLSHIT, OR SAD 

LIKE IF IT WAS ONE OF MY FRIENDS OR SOMEONE AT SCHOOL I WOULD PROCEED TO EXPLAIN TO THEM MY SIDE AND TELL THEM TO GO FUCK THEMSELVES, SINCE THEY WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO GET ANY ACTION OF ANY KIND IN ANY POSSIBLE WAY UNLESS IT WAS FROM THEIR MOM 

SO, OBVIOUSLY, I COULD NOT SAY THIS TO MOTHER.

BUT I MEAN, LIKE SERIOUSLY? I REALLY HAD BETTER HOPES IN HER. SHE EVEN YELLED AT ME BECAUSE I SHOWED MY BROTHER A LESBIAN JOKE! WHICH I FUCKING DIDNT BY THE WAY! HE WAS SHOWING IT TO ME! 

LIKE I AM SORRY YOU GREW UP IN A GENERATION OF FUCKING RETARDED FUCKING BITCH ASS HOMOPHOBES, BUT THIS IS FUCKING 2016 AND SHE NEEDS TO GET OVER HERSELF 

SO AGGRAVATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

AND SHE ALWAYS DOES THIS TO. IF I MENTION ANYTHING ABOUT SOMEONE BEING GAY OR BI OR A LESBIAN IN FRONT OF SOMEONE OR IN PUBLIC, SHE REACTS MORE THAN IF I SWEAR 

AND THIS REALLY NAUSEATES ME BC, SRSLY?

 SHE SAYS 'IDK IF THEIR PARENTS EXPLAINED THIS TO THEM YET' LIKE HONESTLY, WHAT THE FUCK? WHAT. THE. FUCK. THAT ISNT EVEN A THING. 'IDK IF THEIR PARENTS EXPLAINED THIS TO THEM YET' 

WHAT THE HELL.IT IS 2016. THEIR PARENTS DON'T NEED TO EXPLAIN IT TO THEM. I MEAN, IF IT IS LIKE A YOUNG KID OR SOMETHING, I GET THEY MIGHT NOT KNOW WHAT IT MEANS, BUT ACTING LIKE IT'S A BIG FUCKING DEAL IS JUST GOING TO RAISE THAT CHILD INTO THINKING IT IS A BAD THING AND THEY COULD END UP BEING A HOMOPHOBE TOO. LIKE WHAT IF THEY ARE GAY? BI? WHATEVER? AND YOU JUST GAVE THEM THE IDEA IT WAS BAD. EVEN IF I DIDNT KNOW YOU WELL, AND YOU WERE SOMEONE ON THE STREET, I DEFINITELY WOULD BE MORE HESITANT ABOUT THE ENTIRE SITUATION.SHE AND THE REST OF THE FUCKED UP SOCIETY NEED TO GET OVER NORMAL. IT IS JUST A CONCEPT OUR CORRUPT SOCIETY CREATED, TO ELEVATE A STANDARD FOR THE PROCLAIMED 'BETTER' PEOPLE TO BE A PART OF, AND THE LESS TO LOOK UP TO, OR STRIVE TO BECOME.AND THANK GOD THAT I AM ABLE TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE ONLINE WHO FEEL THE SAME WAY, AND CAN CONFIRM THAT I HAVE THE RIGHT IDEAS. OTHERWISE, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WOULD DO. 

SO, IF YOU AGREE, PLEASE COMMENT. EVEN IF YOU DISAGREE, I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY. AND IF YOU AS WELL HAVE ANY ADVICE RELATING THIS TOPIC, LET ME KNOW. IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO REQUEST A NEW CHAPTER, FEEL FREE TO COMMENT THAT AS WELL. I LOVE YOU ALL, STAY BEAUTIFUL!-HANNAH XX

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I know I already wrote a closing a/n thing, but again, I wrote that mid-rant so I want to clarify some things now that I am calm. First of all, I would, but I really don't feel like retyping all of that so it is typed normally. Also, I am sorry for all of the curse words. Another thing, I mentioned something about telling someone to go fuck themselves, and to clarify, I would not do that. Maybe under some circumstances, but I don't think it would necessarily be appropriate, and I probably wouldn't feel totally comfortable saying something like that anyway. Like I have said before, I really do believe in being nice no matter who you are speaking to. I mean, if you are goofing around with your friend and say something like that, it can be okay. However, just saying that to someone, even if you have a reason, the reason probably isn't good enough. We have no idea what is going on in each others lives' so we should be careful and watch what we say and do to people. I also realize I spoke some pretty harsh words against homophobes, and I apologize. I did not mean to offend anybody,  and I shouldn't have used that language about that generation. What I mean is, it is not their fault they grew up in a generation where being not-straight was a thing, and especially not an okay thing. But they have to realize that it isn't their generation anymore, and things are changing. Gay is okay. Bisexual okay. Being who you are is okay. All that matters is that you are happy. (Now, I don't mean it is okay to be a murderer if it makes you happy. You can't hurt people. Not like that anyway. Sometimes being who you are can hurt other people emotionally. It will probably hurt you too. But they need to learn how to deal with the fact that you are you.) So, All that matters is that you are happy. And not killing anyone.   Now that I have formally spoken to you guys, I will wrap this all up. I love you all, stay beautiful. Message me any time. 

-Hannah xx

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CHALLENGE OF THE WEEK

Try to be comfortable in your own skin in front of someone else. If this might be a few steps ahead of where you are now, don't worry; focus on you. You need to learn to be comfortable with yourself before you can be comfortable with yourself in front of other people. Before you can do any of this you need to know who you are. It is all part of a long journey, that everyone is on. Even if it doesn't seem like it. Even if it feels as if everyone was a million steps ahead, there is always people by your side. So do what you need to do. One of the other chapters touches these subjects as well, being yourself and the journey to self love. Chapter One I think. Check it out.