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07; Sean Lew

I think it's time for a sad imagine >:)

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"Why don't you just talk to him? I'm sure it didn't mean anything." Bailey asked. I sat on the edge of her bed at almost 10:30pm, crying.

Earlier, I saw Sean, my boyfriend, talking to this girl named Jenna. We've been together for almost a year, so I wasn't going to get upset over him talking to another girl. I had trusted him.

Still, I watched them for a while. 5 seconds later, he hugged her, and kissed her. Not a cheek kiss either, a kiss on the lips.

I ran to Baileys house crying. Refusing to answer any of Sean's calls or texts. I don't think he saw me, but he still called me every night after dance to make sure I got home.

from: the loml
Please answer me, y/n. Did you get home ok??

If I hadn't just watched him kiss another girl 30 minutes ago, I would have been home, happily FaceTiming Sean.

Baileys phone started ringing. She gave me a look, and I assumed it was Sean. I sighed, sliding off the bed and sitting on the floor.

"Hello? Yeah, hey Sean."

I rolled my eyes, it was him.

"Um, she's with me. No! You really don't-" then she groaned, he hung up on her.

"He's coming over here." She grimaced.

I sighed for the nth time that night, closing my eyes and taking a deep breath. Maybe Bailey was right, it probably didn't mean anything. Still, it didn't exactly feel great to watch your boyfriend kiss some other girl.

10 minutes later, Bailey, Sean, and I were all sitting on Baileys living room couch. I refused to look at Sean, but no matter how many times I looked away, he'd always ask what was wrong.

"Y/n, babe, please look at me." Sean said. Bailey stood up, saying she'll give us some space.

Babe, he called me babe. I couldn't help it anymore, I burst into tears. Immediately, I felt his arms around me.

"No! Get off of m-me," I cried, pushing him off and standing up from the couch. I tried wiping my tears away but they just kept falling.

"Y/n! What is wrong with you?" Sean asked, looking very confused and kind of hurt.

"What's wrong with me? I watched you kiss Jenna in class tonight! On the lips, Sean! We've been dating for almost a year and you do this!" I pointed a finger at him accusingly.

His eyes went wide. He knew what he did, and he isn't going to try and deny it. Sean looked down at his lap, fiddling with his fingers.

"It didn't mean anything, y/n. You know that." He stood up and started walking towards me slowly. His eyes were filled with remorse, but how could I just let this slide?

"Please, just.. Just hear me out, I pro-"

"Just go," I cut him off, my lip quivering as I pointed towards the front door. I bit my lip, not wanting to let him see me cry again.

"W-what?" Sean asked slowly, tears threatening to spill out of his deep brown, beautiful eyes. No. I can't do this. I should stop loving him.

But how do you just stop loving someone, someone who's made you so happy? Someone who's been there for you when you were having a bad day. You couldn't. But I couldn't just let this slide.

"You hurt me, Sean. Please, just please go. This is just as hard for me as it is for you." I sniffled, wanting him out of sight so I could just cry already.

"Okay. If it makes you happy, I just want you to be happy. I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry for doing this to you. You deserve someone better than me. I love you, y/n." Sean said. Eyebrows furrowed, eyes teary, a frown on his face.

A big part of me didn't want him to leave. Part of me wanted him to stay, fix the mistake he had made. But the other part of me knew we both had to move on. Maybe we just weren't right for each other.

Just like that, he was gone. Out the door, out of sight, but hopefully not out of my life. I dropped to my knees and cried, head in my hands.

I had just lost the person I loved most.

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Um.. Yeah, so that just happened. *smirks* Tell me what you thought? lol
By the way! I have an actual book in my drafts, I already have a few chapters written and if you guys want me to post it, I will! Just let me know. It's a Gabe fan fic, just so you know :)

Love always,

Jalynn.