Fall From Grace

You Coward Buckingham!

Lindsey walked through door of his home. He wasn't sure how he was going to tell Kristen that he cheated on her before their wedding let alone tell her that Stevie was pregnant with his child. The last bit of information would surely crush her.
Lindsey took a deep breath and called out. "Kristen?"

A few seconds later, his wife appeared.
She walked up to him and wrapped her arms around him. She pulled away slightly and looked into his eyes. "When you left, I thought about everything you said. I started to read those pamphlets and I want to try surrogacy first. They say that we can use my eggs so the baby will be ours! And if...." Kristen took a breath and with tears in her eyes. "If that doesn't work then we can adopt."
Kristen wiped her tears away and smiled.
Lindsey couldn't tell her about Stevie right now. He hadn't seen Kristen smile in so long; if he were to tell her now, that smile would be gone.

Lindsey sighed and said. "I'm glad Kristen, it's good to see a smile on your face again."
"Thank you Lindsey for being so patient with me. I'm still grieving but life goes on, right? Come up to the bedroom with me. I need you, it's been a while." She said kissing his lips.
She took his hand and led him upstairs.

Lindsey laid awake staring up at the ceiling; Kristen was asleep, wrapped in his arms.
"How am I going to tell her? Dammit Buckingham! You're an idiot. Don't be a coward, you have to tell Kristen!" Lindsey continued his inner monologue until he couldn't lay still anymore.
He slipped from Kristen's grasp, careful not to wake her and went to grab his swimming trunks. He decided to swim some laps to clear his head.

Kristen woke up and found her husband gone; she grabbed her robe and went to search for him. She didn't have to search long, finding him in the pool of course.
"Couldn't sleep?" She asked.
Lindsey heard her speak and swam towards the steps to get out of the pool. He grabbed his towel he brought with him and dried himself off.
"Nope."
Then saying to himself. "It's now or never."
"Kristen, I need to tell you something." He said leading her inside to the kitchen.
Kristen didn't like the sound of that.
They both sat down at the kitchen table.
Lindsey took a huge breath. "Before I tell you, I want you to know that the other person involved is innocent in all this. It's not their fault, it's mine. All mine. I deceived that person."
Kristen stared wide eyed, afraid of what Lindsey was about to tell her.
"Two weeks before our wedding...I cheated on you."
Kristen gasped, tears stinging her eyes threatening to spill down her cheeks.
"Please, tell me that's a sick joke! That...it's not true!" Her voice trembled, her tears falling.
Lindsey looked down and shook his head. "Unfortunately, it is true. I cheated on you."
"Who was she?! How did you deceive her?"
Lindsey looked up and looked into her eyes. "She didn't know I was in a relationship, she didn't know I was engaged. I didn't tell her till the next day after it happened."
Kristen stood up and slapped him across the face. "I can't believe you would do that to me! You fucking bastard!!! And this woman! How could you do that to her? Who is she? You didn't answer that question."
"Stevie." He said.
"Stevie! Great! Just great! Why couldn't you sleep with someone you didn't know? Someone you don't have to see every time there is going to be a new album and tour! Are you still fucking her!?"
"No, we haven't seen each other since that time." Lindsey answered cursing himself for lying yet again.
Kristen shook her head. "I can't stand to look at you right now. You're sleeping in the guest bedroom."
Before walking upstairs she turned to Lindsey and said. "Tell me, why now? Why are just telling me this when it happened five months ago?"
Lindsey froze at this and couldn't tell her, so he instead said. "It was just...I couldn't keep it in anymore. It was eating away at me. I'm sorry Kristen. I'm sorry."
"I'm going to bed." Was all that she said before leaving the room.
Once alone, Lindsey put his elbows on the table and buried his face in his hands in shame. "You fucking coward Buckingham!" He said to himself.

It was a quiet week for Lindsey; Kristen didn't speak to him or acknowledge him.
He still hadn't gone over Stevie's or spoken to to her. He spent most of his time in his recording studio; at night he would either sleep in his studio or in the guest bedroom.

Lindsey was walking up from his downstairs studio and was met by Kristen.
"I wanted to let you know...that, I forgive you. It still hurts and you have to regain my trust again. The fact that you stepped up and told me is what helped me decide to give you another chance." She wrapped her arms around his neck and looked into his eyes. "I still love you and I want to start a family with you. I want to try surrogacy as soon as possible. I'm going to make an appointment soon so we can start the process."
Lindsey was speechless, all he could think to do was kiss Kristen on her lips. "I will work hard to regain your trust, and I can't wait to start a family with you!"

Stevie hadn't heard anything from Lindsey.
She had began to have a tiny bit of hope he would step up and be a father to their child.
By the end of the week, she was feeling heartbroken, not for herself but for her son.

By the following week, Stevie pushed Lindsey out of her mind and with Christine's and Karen's help, they began to decorate the nursery.
Because of the fumes from the paint, Christine and Karen kept Stevie away from the nursery for the day.
The nursery colors were brown, blue and white; it would have a music theme. The room would be decorated with guitars and drums and musical notes going all around the room.

Stevie spent that day at her grand piano, working on some songs she had just written.
She stopped playing when there was a knock on her door.
She walked to the front door and opened it.
"Hey Steph, may I come in?" asked Lindsey.