Unexpected.

Chapter ten: I just wanted to live.

“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. - Dr. Seuss. ” 

Chapter ten:

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September 24th, 2013. - Tuesday.

 

I sighed dropping my bags into the chair next to me.

"I'm exhausted Emery."

My poor swollen feet were literally screaming out in pain.

"You said you needed new clothes, so we got you knew clothes!" Emery said handing me my Starbucks drink.

"So how are you going to tell Princeton he's the father of your baby?"

I took a sip of my coffee before setting it back down on the table.

"I don't know, maybe I'll just walk up to him and tell him in school." I said shrugging my shoulders.

"Miyah be real."

"I am."

"I don't think telling him in school would be the greatest idea."

"Maybe you should call him over?"

"Yeah with my dysfunctional family?"

"Or maybe I just won't tell him."

"Miyah he deserves to know."

"After all he did help you make this baby."

"I'm reminded everyday." I mumbled placing my coffee back to my lips.

"You act like it's a bad thing."

"Emery it is a bad thing!"

"How Miyah how?"

"I'm eighteen years old with a baby! Not to mention with a guy I barely know! It's not like this happened out of love Emery no, this happened because I wanted to live. For once in my life I wanted to live. And this is what happens. Emery I'm scared okay? I'm just scared." I said grabbing my coffee and bags.

"Come on, I want to go home." I said walking out of Starbucks.

Once we were inside my car we just sat there in silence.

"You're right Miyah. I'm sorry. I don't know how you feel, I'm not in your shoes. I just want don't want you to work yourself up over this, all I'm saying Miyah is this baby needs a father in their life. Don't make that choice for Princeton let him make it, and if he doesn't then fuck him, and move on. Because in the end this baby is still going to have one hell of a mom."

I sighed wiping away the tears.

"I'm so tired of crying Em." I said laughing.

"I feel pathetic."

"You're not pathetic, you're scared, confused and an emotional mess." Emery said laughing with me.

"Definitely an emotional mess." I said wiping my eyes starting my car.

"You're right though, I won't let Princeton's choice affect me."

"You'll be okay."

"Everyone keeps saying that, but I just don't believe it."