She will be loved

Chapter 5: Demi or Jc?

 "So um Ash , what we talked about before ? Well I still need an answer."  Demi says. I can tell how nervous she really sounds by the cracks in her voice as she spoke. I can feel my heart racing as her hand tries to hold mine. I quickly pull it away knowing that as painful as this is I have to make things right. I take a deep breath as I look into Demi's confused eyes. I couldn't help but flinch as I feel her staring into my eyes waiting for an answer. 

"Look Demi.... I am sorry but this can't happen." As qucikly as that was said I jumped up off the swing. I go to walk back inside when I feel a grip pull on my wrist.  

"Please Ash. You can't do this too me. You can't make me fall in love with you then walk right out of my life." Demi says still not letting go of my wrist. I somehow manage to pull wrist out of Demi's grip. I am about to run inside when Demi's following words stop me. 

"Before you go just do me one thing. Look me in the eyes and tell me you didn't feel anything last night between us." 

I close my eyes and take a deep breath. Why does she have to make this so damn hard ? Obivously as much as I don't want to admit this I do have feelings for her. If I didn't have a boyfriend I would embrace her in a big hug and acept her offer. I would treat her like a princess and give her the love she deserves to know. I shake all my thoughts away so I have none. I open my eyes and look right into her broken heart. 

"I am sorry Demi but I didn't feel anything last night between us. Never have and never will." 

I know those words are hard and clod but she needs to be reminded that she can't have everything that she wants. She needs to know that I am not screwing up my whole life just because of one night in bed with her. I qucikly look away as I see a tear form in her eyes. 

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Demi's Point Of View 

I can't help but stand there in shock over hearing Ashley's reply. Those words Never have and Never Will haunt my memories. I have been in pain before however having the one that you love walk out of your life like that disapear ?? Well there's nothing more painful about that. The worst part is there's nothing I could do about it. I really thought I won this one. I really thought I could move on from the past and finally learn to love again. Not just sex but acturally love like a relation ship which is something that I have never had before. 

"Hey what happened ? Are you ok you don't look so good ? " Jennel asks as I find myself walking back into my house. Crap I completley forgot that the girls are still here. I need to kick them out without sounding harsh. 

"Look I am not feeling too good. I am going to call you girls a cab back to the mansion and I'll see you guys Wensday."  I say then quickly follow up on my plan. I am slowly about to head upstairls when I hear CeCe and Ashley yelling something. I quickly hide behind the door out of courisity. 

"Your such an ass you know that ?" 

"Look I am not in the mood to talk to you right now. Lets just get our shit together and leave." 

"You not only screwd up your chance at being on the live shows but you screwd up Demi's heart as well. Your such a low life and I will expose you to Jc." 

"You can pull any stunt you one but no one's going to believe you. Just say out of this if you know what's best for you." 

I qucily run to my room as I hear someone comming toward the door. I wait until the girl's finally leave then head back downstairs. I pull out a soda and sit down at my computer. My heart stops as a read the title of the youtube videos the girls were watching eariler. It reads happy one year Ashley. Once I finish watching the video I couldn't help but cry. How could I be so stuipd to not realize that Ashley has a boyfriend ? I should have known that a beautiful girl like Ashley would be taken already. 

I wipe the tears away and pull out my phone. I call this number that I know way to well and just like that the door bell rings.