Words In My Head

Sorry

I'm sorry
I seem so negative
so lacking in imperative
the silence seems immersive
when reality defies intuitive

I'm sorry
I seem so pessimistic
so far from optimistic
but the world is too realistic
in a way that makes me feel sick

I'm sorry
I seem so distant
so difficult and despondent
I'm on the stormy sea front
of madness, this isn't what I want

I'm sorry
I am me
whatever that may be
not always perfect and happy
but trying so hard to see

How wonderful the world can be
How wonderful the world could be
when all I seem to see
is How wonderful the world should be
but may never be

and that thought scares me

I'm sorry