My Life is Unwritten

Chapter 4

This time I was really ready. I was really gonna do it. You know that feeling when you're nervous and exited at the same time? Well, that's the feeling I had that day. I felt like I could do anything. And when the bell rang for break, I went around looking for Dustin. Then I got lucky and saw him talking to some of his friends from the basketball team. They were all in uniform. I was walking over to him with full confedince. Staring straight ahead. He was holding a basketball in one hand. And right before he saw me, he flipped his perfect hair out of his eyes. My heart started beating away and I was blushing hard, but there was no going back now, I was already over there.
"Hey, Zoe" was the first thing he said. "Hey" I replied, nervously. Then, one of his friends started talking to him again, so I figured that I'd have to wait. So I did, and just when his friend was finally done talking, the bell rang for class. Well that failed, I thought. Then Dustin turned to me and said "I'll talk to you at lunch, okay? " "Alright" I said, trying to keep my cool. So we went on to class, and honestly all that I could think about was him again. Everything about him was just so perfect. I could go on all day about him. I just hoped that he liked me enough to go to the dance with me. I mean like, when I first met him last year, like I said before, it started out as a little crush and now it's gotten to the point where I apparently drool over him. I also find myself thinking about him all the time. I wondered then, how much he thought of me. Could it really be more than a friend? I had no clue! I don't ever see him staring at me, like I do to him. But that didn't mean he couldn't like me back. Then I thought hard about when Cleo and Amy said that I start acting weird around him. It's not my fault! I couldn't really help it, honestly. It's just that he's so cute that I don't know how to act around him, you know what I mean? I guess I can't really control it. But wait, if I can't even control myself looking at him, then how would I control myself slow dancing with him? Or even going on a date with him?
All of these thoughts were overwhelming me, so I shook my head, trying to focus on my class work. I looked down on the work sheet I was doing, it had no answers on it. I had to focus. I just had to. But I couldn't. Gee, my friends don't know what kind of crazy girl that boy has turned me into. As I got even more lost in my thoughts, I felt a tap on the shoulder. It was my teacher, again. "Excuse me Zoe, are you going to tell us the answer to question twelve?" She asked. Oh no, not this again, I thought. I turned around in my seat to look at Amy, I was hoping she would cover for me again, but instead she gave me one of those "You're on your own" looks.
Everyone in the room was facing me. At least Dustin wasn't here to see mr embarrass myself, again. I didn't know what to say, but I had to say something and that something was "Umm......Crayons!"
The whole class laughed. Well, that was stupid of me, I thought. The next thing I knew, I was handed an after school detention slip. "Daydreaming again I see" my teacher said as she gave me the slip. The laughter of the class was starting to die down, as she walked to her desk. Great, I thought. This was the last thing I needed. I then checked the time on the clock, there were two minutes until the lunch bell. By now I was getting really anxious to talk to Dustin, maybe the him the way I feel, or just simply ask him to the dance. The tic-toc sound was getting loud in my head, and just wanted to do it and get it over with. It was now or never.
Just as the sentence repeated in my head, along with the tic-toc sound, the bell finally rang. It was music to my ears. I raced through the hallways and to my locker, grabbing my lunch and putting my work away. Suddenly I thought "Where would Dustin want to talk to me?" With that question in my mind, I wondered around looking for him. Then I saw Nick at his locker. I sped over to him and asked "Quick, Nick, have you seen Dustin?" Maybe it was a little too fast, but I had to know. "Gee Zoe, relax", he told me. "Sorry, but have you seen him?" I asked, more calmly. "Naw sorry, why? You planning to make out with him behind the school?", he joked, with a smirk on his face. As much as I would like that, Nick didn't need to know. "No, listen, it's none of your business, okay?", I said firmly, stomping off. Pushing that aside, I looked around for Dustin again and I looked and I looked, and I looked!
Sighing, I finally just gave up and sat on a bench outside. It was a little windy and no one was there, but I didn't mind. I was too disappointed to eat in the cafeteria. Sometimes I didn't mind being alone anyways, it gave me time to think.
Just as I started to unpack my lunch, someone sat down next to me. When I turned to my left, to see who it was, I didn't see any eyes, just beautiful hair covering them. It was Dustin and without thinking, I stroked his hair out of the way. It was soft and silky, shiny too. My hand then travelled to the back of his hair, which was pretty long, as well as the rest. He just smiled, then said "What did you want to say earlier?" His words brought me back to what I was going to ask. I removed my hand from his hair and said "So, have you heard about the dance?" There, I asked, it was out there, finally.
He thought about what I said for a second. Sometimes he could be a deep thinker. Cleo told me once that me and him have that in common. I faced down, preparing myself for the answer I was about to get. "Yeah sorry, I've got a game that night", he said. I was disappointed, but I understood. "Oh, that's okay", was all I said. "I'll see you around", he said, then left. I was alone once again, but this time I was sad too.