Emily Sanders and the List (on hold)

Chapter 22

I tug on my beanie till it was on the perfect spot on my head before walking out of psych and going straight for my locker.

Its been almost a week and a half since the sleepover and...well...not much had improved.

Kate and john haven't spoken a single word. In fact john barely shows his face anymore. Didn't show up to Starbucks last Monday or yesterday. Which was a first for our group.

He usually is either busy with ASB or his new girlfriend. Either way its incredibly tense right now.

The boys seemed to bounce back after a week. I learned Seth was having issues with the girl he liked, and booboo has been going through some family stuff. Ian was just insulted no one was shocked about his zebra dream.

Jeremy was the only one who was really okay the entire time. He was just tired. But now they're all back to themselves, happy and as loud as ever.

Ben and Jessica... I honestly don't know.

Jessica tried the thing Paisley said to do. But Jessica was right, Ben did get mad.

He pulled her aside and yelled at her, saying she's being ridiculous, making a fool of herself. She tried to calmly explain how she's been feeling, but Ben wouldn't have it. She started crying when he stormed off. She then came to me and told me everything.

Now she thinks he definitely is cheating on her. He's been talking to a lot of girls and gives zero attention to Jessica. That is until his parents aren't home for the weekend. He also cancels all their plans. Making up excuses each time

I told her not to get ahead of herself. Cause we don't have any proof. But even I'm doubting myself.

Me well I've been dealing with all of this. For some reason I'm the person in the group that everyone else goes to for help. I don't mind it, its just tiring.

The first time walking into school with my new hairdo wasn't as daunting as I thought. Probably cause I had to many things in my mind to think about it to much.

Sure people stared, but at this point I just don't focus on it. Besides they're stupid if they're shocked to see a girl with cancer having no hair.

And then there's Caleb. Another thing I don't know about. He hasn't talked to any of us, hasn't gone to any of our assigned tutor days, and always hides away in his hoodie.

The others don't see it, but I do. And I can't help but worry.

He started coming late to classes again and sitting in the back. Far away from me.

Yesterday Jeremy went to see what's up, why he is acting up, treating us poorly. Treating me poorly.

Caleb simply shoved him out of the way and kept walking.

The guys keep telling me he always does this. Acts like a dick for awhile then comes back as the happy Caleb he once was

No one knows why he does it but we all have our guesses. Some more ridiculous then the others.

Kate thinks he's bipolar, Jessica says its just puberty. Of course ian thinks he's in some sort of secret mafia. He got a smack on the head from all of us after saying that.

But as I look at Caleb from a distance, noticing the fresh bruise on his jaw. Mixing with the discolored healing ones, I can't help but think ian is right on the violence part. Something definitely isn't good about this situation. Yet I'm the only one who seems to care.

I tried calling him once. I was really sick one night. Throwing up and feeling just terrible. I sobbed on my bed from all my pain, just wanting to hear his voice.