Emily Sanders and the List (on hold)

Chapter 1

*pic of Emily*

I woke up to the most annoying thing in the world, my alarm clock. With my eyes still closed I fling my arm across and hit the snooze button on my clock. I go back to my peaceful sleep in my warm bed until a huge amount of weight falls on top of me. I groan and quickly cover my face. By the smell of the perfume I can already tell it's my best friend, Kate.

"GET UP BITCH!! WE'RE GOING TO BE LATE!!" She yells into my ear causing another groan to escape my mouth.

"Go away" I mumble

"What!? Well that's rude" I mentally roll my eyes for her being so over dramatic. " But seriously get up it's the first day of school you have to look fabulous"

She finally rolls off of me and to the other side of the bed, facing me. She  looks at me for a few seconds. Studying my face. "Are you ok?" Kate whispers.

Kate is the one out of two people besides my family that knows I'm sick. Not that that matters anymore cause the paper came out awhile ago saying 'Deceased hero's daughter has cancer'. But when I first told her it was a big deal. She took it hard as well but she soon recovered and started treating me just as she used to. It was nice, she knows I don't want anyone's pity and my family already treats me like a small China doll so I don't need anymore of that. It makes me feel normal like nothing is wrong with me. That's what I love most about her.

"Yeah I'm fine, just a little tired and sore." She nods in understanding then gets up. I finally sit up to see her rummaging through my closet. "Go take a shower while I pick out your outfit ok?" She says in attempt to lighten the mood. I roll my eyes but head to my bathroom anyways. Closing the door I peek a glance at myself in the mirror. I look like shit. I sigh as I examine myself. I have bags under my eyes and I have lost some weight. I haven't started chemotherapy yet so I luckily still have my hair. Small bruises graze my skin. I shake my head and start to undress. I get into the hot shower and clean myself. Taking time to enjoy the heat. But that is soon over as Kate yells at me once again. I love her but sometimes she is just to much.

I get out and wrap a towel around myself. When I walk back into my room I see my entire closet on the floor. "Really Kate!?" I said. "You're cleaning this up later"

" Yeah yeah whatever, here put this on" she said as she threw the clothes to me. "Do I have a say in any of this?" I asked. I examine the outfit. Its a simple black top with light blue high wasted shorts and a gray over sized sweater. She knows how I don't like showing my arms anymore. Its freaky how well she understands me.

"Nope you don't now go! The queen demands you" she said shooing me back to the bathroom. After I change she does my hair into a messy ponytail. I normally don't wear makeup but Kate said it could help cover my dark circles and look healthier so I agreed. I pull on my white converse and grab my bag.

Heading down stairs the smell of bacon hits my nose. A normal person would be drooling over the smell but being sick it just makes me want to vomit. I head into the kitchen where I see my mom at the oven. She turns and gives me a warm smile. "Good morning sweetie" she chirps. "Did you sleep better last night?"

"A little yeah" I respond. I go to a cabinet and grab my medicine taking time to swallow each one. After that I kiss my mom on the cheek and grab an apple. Before I can leave however my moms voice stops me.

"Are you not going to eat? You know the doctor said you have to. Even if you feel like you can't"

" mom please, I have an apple and we're going to meet John at Starbucks like we do every Monday" I said "if we don't leave now we will be late"

My mom sighs. "Ok fine" she then turns her attention to Kate. "Kate, honey promise me you will get her to eat today?"

"Will do Mrs. Sanders" Kate beams. I roll my eyes again, grabbing Kate and heading out. "Bye mom" I yell. "Bye sweetie I love you."

I lock the door and head to Kate's car. As soon as she gets in we head to Starbucks. John is my other best friend, the other person who knew before everyone else. As we drive we dance and sing to our favorite songs.

When we park in front of Starbucks we can see John inside with drinks around him. He knows what we want so he always orders for us. When he finally sees us he gives us a warm smile. "Well if it isn't my two most favorite girls." In the corner of my eye I see Kate blushing. She has been into John for awhile now but she never says anything. I think I need to fix that soon.

We all sit down after a few hugs and enjoy are drinks. I attempt my apple but only eat half of it. John sees this and looks up to me, concern on his face. "How have you been doing Em?"

Johns reaction to my cancer I thought was sweet. He cried. And the best part is that he isn't afraid to admit it. He is still a big softy on the subject but its OK. He will get use to it eventually... I hope

"I'm good." I say as I try to sound convincing. He gives me a look saying I'm not falling for your shit. I sigh quietly to myself. "I'm tired. The doctor appointments have been more frequent and I'm going to be starting chemo soon. Um also, I'm about to walk into school with everyone knowing I'm dying. That's never fun am I right?" I chuckle but my friends just look at each other then back at me. I groan and look at my drink.  " I'm just scared I guess."

"Don't worry, no one will judge you I promise" John said

"Yeah and we will be with you all day so you won't feel alone or over whelmed OK?" Kate adds.

"I don't know you guys. I mean you know our school, they love to stereotype everything..." I trail off. John grabs my right hand as Kate grabs my left. "Its going to be OK." John gives me a reassuring smile. I smile back "OK"

When we finish our drinks Kate and I head to her car as John heads to his. The ride was silent as my nerves were getting the better of me. I hope no one starts rumors or look at me like I'm a freak. I hope the popular kids don't mess with me. I hope I can just get through today with nothing going wrong.

Kate parks next to John. We all get out but I stop to look at the front of the school. Kate grabs my hand and John does the same. I take a deep breath and head to the entrance...

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