Love Will Remember

Chapter 12:

"What's wrong?" Harry said running towards me.

"You like her don't you. You like her better than me." I cry.

"What! No! Where did you get that from?"

"I saw you guys getting close, you grabbed her hand Harry! You acted so in love with her... Why?"

"No Selena... You got this all wrong. I love YOU and only you."

I don't know if I should believe him. Is he even telling the truth. What if he's just saying that.

"Come on. Lets go home. I think you should rest." Harry insisted.

*Moments later*

We arrive at his house. Finally, I just want to sleep this all away. I burst into the house and lay down on Harry's bed. I immediately pass out.

*A couple Hours later*

I open my eyes slowly seeing that Harry is cuddling me. His buff arms wrapping around my waist. He was watching me sleep this whole time?

"I'm going to go shower before it gets late..."

"Okay, don't take too long. I want to continue cuddling." He replies smirking.

I sigh and walk into the bathroom. I shut the door and remove my clothing. I turn on the warm water and walk into the shower. I was thinking about what happened at the mall. Harry and Vanessa. I remember Vanessa's face. It's so familiar, I know I've seen it before. I keep thinking about where I have seen her. Suddenly, I remembered. She was my bully. She spread rumors about me and made my life a living hell. She was the one who would call me worthless. My head started hurting. I can remember those memories. I try not to but I just can't forget those horrible memories. I'm feeling the need to do something about this depression. I pick up the razor and I'm thinking about whether I should do it or not. I decide to do it. I slide it across my wrist. Here's to the night I stood alone, to the night I cried so hard I couldn't breathe, to the night I prayed for this to go away, and of course to the night I got raped. It wasn't a pleasant feeling but my worries are slowly fading away.

I step out of the shower and put on my pajamas. Hopefully Harry doesn't notice the cuts. I then walk out of the bathroom and lay down right beside Harry.

We had a moment of silence.

"I love you Selena. You know that right? I would never do anything to hurt you." Harry comforted.

"You just don't understand my life Harry... everything I've been through"

"I never knew why you loved me. Why do you love me Selena?"

"I fell in love with you because you loved me when I couldn't love myself." I replied.

"How could you possibly not love yourself! You're so strong and beautiful and if you can't see anything beautiful about yourself, get a better mirror, look a little closer, stare a little longer because there is something inside you that made you keep trying, despite everyone telling you to quit. You built a cast around your broken heart and signed it yourself. You signed it, "They were wrong." Harry empathized. "Don't give up."

"I think part of the reason why I'm holding on so tight is because I fear something great wont happen twice." I rejoined.

Harry leans over at me and kisses my cheek.

I can see Harry staring at my arm.

"What's this???" He worryingly said.

"Harry... I..."

"Selena! Please don't do this anymore. You're worth way more than you think." Harry said while a tear drops from his eye.

"Harry... I'm sorry... It's just..."

"I will try to fix you.." He responded while kissing my wrist.

He continues to cry.

I hate seeing him like this. But cutting is what makes me feel better. It makes my worries disappear.

"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy. I'm telling you it's going to be worth it." Harry murmurs.

*The next morning*

I lazily get out of bed and get dressed quietly making sure Harry doesn't hear. I throw on my sweats and a plain tang top. Then I slide on my jacket and slip on my boots. I can see Harry is sleeping peacefully. I walk out of the house and walk to the market a couple blocks away.

I enter the market and see a variety soda and candy. That's what I was hoping to get. As I grab the candy I see a pack of cigarettes. I am curious of them. Maybe they will make my depression go away if I try them. I really need to get rid of this feeling and this is an option. So I put the candy away and grab the cigarettes and a lighter. I walk up to the counter and pay for them.

"Aren't you a little to young for cigarettes?" The cashier asked.

"No, they're for a friend." I reply while grabbing the cigarettes and walk outside of the store.

I decide to walk to the park since it isn't a bad day. It isn't that far from here.

As I arrived at the park I sit down at a bench and take out a cigarette. I light it and put in my mouth. I inhale it and blow it out. I feel the same my depression isn't going away. Maybe I should try one more.

Harry's POV:

I wake up and Selena isn't next to me. Where has she gone! I quickly get up and search the house for her. She's no where to be seen. I'm freaking out where could she go? What if she went by herself. I quickly get dressed at jump into my car. I look from left to right searching for her. Maybe she might be at the park! She always goes there.

I park into the park's parking lot and get out of the car. I'm looking at every corner to find her. So I walk around the whole park.

*End of Harry's POV*

I put another cigarette it into my mouth and inhale it. I see Harry! What is he doing here? How'd he find me here?!

"SELENA!!" Harry yells. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING SMOKING?"

"Harry you don't understand... I"

"Get in the car. Now." Harry orders. "We're going home."

He grabs hold of my arm tightly and drags me into the car.

*Moments later*

We arrive at the house and my arm is hurting.

"Harry! you really hurt my arm."

He doesn't reply.

He shoves me to the room and sits me down on the bed.

"Please tell me why you left alone. And why you were smoking. Why? Selena! Why?" Harry fumed.

I cry with my palms on my face covering my tears.

"I'm broken and you know that. I smoke because I thought the pain would go away. I was wrong, it didn't make a difference..."