Once Again

Sorrows and Sunshine

(Taylor's POV)

I desperately pick up books and stack them in piles while crying to myself. I closed the library up before I started because it's a complete mess in here. I'm a complete mess..

I'm going insane trying to pick up these books when I feel a hand on my back. I look up to see Zayn with a worried face. I sniff and continue to pick up books. "I thought I told you to leave?" I say in a quiet tone.

I stand up and carry a large stack of books to the desk. "You did." He says while standing next to the knocked over book shelf. "Then why are you still here?" I say in a slightly angry tone. I'm a mess...you don't need to see me like this...I just have to breath...

He looks at me and walks closer. "You're not a mess, darling....you just need time off to process what's happening in your life....so if you wanna scream and call me names...I'm fine with that, as long as you get better."

He says with a serious face. I look at him with a straight face that slowly crumbles. I bite my lip and a sob escapes. I drop my arms to my sides and he pulls me into his chest. I wrap my arms around him tightly. "I'm so sorry....I'm so sorry....I'm so sorry."

I mumble over and over. Zayn shushes me and says, "it's okay love....it's all okay." He rocks me back and forth and kisses the side of my head.

"Why don't you close up shop for the day and I'll take you home." I shake my head and say, "no I can't, Jane is going to be back tomorrow and I have to clean and reorganize that shelf."

He nods and holds my face in his hands. I try to calm down and he wipes my tears away with the pad of his thumbs. "Okay, I will stay and help you clean up....then I will take you back home okay, I'm sure Jane will understand."

I nod gently and I say, "Zayn?" He nods egging me to go on. "Don't be mad at me because of Harry....I know you don't trust him but trust me.....that was the real Harry I saw today....I promise you he was the normal Harry...not the one who threatened our family."

Zayn stares with a stern face and I give him a pleading look. "Zayn...trust me....please." I say in a soft voice. "He won't be a threat anymore." I give a small nod. Zayn takes and deep breath and then says, "okay...it's gonna take me a bit...but I trust you."

I smile and kiss his lips. "Thank you...because besides you the baby and Kaylin's wedding in two days....there isn't much anything else that is making me happy." I sniff with a sad laugh.

Zayn pulls me into another hug and then let's me go after a while. "Lets start cleaning okay love?" I nod and go back to my books and I start organizing them in alphabetical order is that when we lift the shelf all I have to do is put the books on.

I look over to Zayn who is lifting the shelf by himself and I smile. "Thank you." He makes sure it's steady and then smiles. "You're welcome." I finished all the books quickly because I'm used to alphabetical order.

It's pretty easy once you start. I ask Zayn to help me out the books back on the shelf and we end up finishing in under an hour. I give him a hug and say, "thank you for helping me and making me feel better."

He smiles and says, "it's what I'm here for Tay." I chuckle and bury my face in his chest. He holds me tightly into his body, enveloping me in his hypnotic scent. I breath him in and then exhale. "You smell amazing."

I say muffled in his coat. He chuckles and says, "so do you....you always smell like vanilla or like a giant rice crispy treat." I chuckle and say, "why thank you." He smirks and nods, "you're welcome."

He rubs my arms and says, "let's get you home love." I nod and say, "can we grab Olive, I want to spend time with her." He nods and says, "yeah lets go."