Once Again

Forgive Me

(Zayn's POV)

I park outside of the hospital and stare ahead of me with tears gathered in my eyes. I let out a shaky sigh and close my eyes.

I look out of the window and see Josh's car ahead of mine. I slowly open the door and get out locking it. I walk around the front of the car and towards the hospital doors.

The automatic doors open in front of me as I walk inside with a sad expression. I look around as I walk to the receptionist.

She smiles up at me and says "hello sir, what can I do for ya?" I clear my throat and say sadly "may I have the room of Taylor Malik?" She nods and looks through he computer.

She smiles and says "okay sir, third floor first door on the right." I nod and say quietly "t-thanks." I walk towards the lift and press the three.

The lift doors close and I sigh and rest my head on the wall of the lift and wipe my face frustratingly. The lift stops and the doors slowly open and I'm met with Josh and Kaylin sitting in waiting chairs outside of her door.

Josh looks up at me and scowls deeply. He wraps his arms around Kaylin I'm guessing to hold her back. He clears his throat. "What the fuck are you here for?"

Kaylin's head snaps up and her eyes are filled with such anger that her eyes are now a dark green color. Her face turns red with anger and she stands up immediately.

Josh's hold is no match for her strength right now. My eyes widen and she storms up to me. Josh goes to grab her arm but is to late. She launches her foot to my balls and I groan.

I fall to my knees and she punches me across the face harshly. I groan again "fuck!" I look up at her and she says in a low voice "I told you not to come here."

I sigh and stand up. "I know, but I had to see her." Kaylin gives me a harsh look and says "you don't deserve to see her....you are the one who caused this, so you deal with the fucking consequences!"

I wince at her harsh tone and tears gather in my eyes again. "I didn't mean to I swear....I was angry and I didn't realize-" Kaylin laughs sarcastically and nods.

"That's not a fucking excuse Zayn!....you fucking sicken me!.....you deserve this pain and I hope you know that she doesn't deserve you or this!"

I let a tear fall and nod. "I know....I know I'm not good enough for her......I just-.....I just love her more than my own life and I fucked it up all over again." Kaylin's face slightly softens and she says "yes you did.....fuck you."

I chuckle sadly and say "I feel so horrible.....I feel like if I see her....if she wants to even look at me, then I will spend the rest of my days apologizing to her."

Kaylin nods slightly and then says "she deserves so much more than you." I look at her and tears gather all over again. She had tears in her eyes too but she's much stronger than I am.

Josh stands behind him and crosses his arms. "This is my fault too." I look at him confused and Kaylin whips around to face him. "What are you talking about?" He frowns deeply.

"At breakfast she told me what happened....I told her that Zayn deserved to know so that he had clarity....she told me she didn't want him to get mad at her or hate her but I just wouldn't fucking let it go."

I frown and so does Kaylin. "What?" He nods and says "I told her to tell him and she got really upset and started to cry....she didn't want him to get angry and not w as my her anymore....it was her biggest fear."

My eyes soften and I frown deeply feeling my lip quiver. "I could never not want her....she's my world....my universe....I love her so much it hurts....so I feel like a monster right now for what I did."