Once Again

Guilt

(Kaylin's POV)

I rush to Taylor's side and brush her cheek. "TAYLOR!" I move her hair out of the way and her eyes lightly flutter open. I sigh and say worryingly "oh my god are you alright?"

She tries to nod but she winches and tears fall from her eyes. "K-Kay...it hurts a lot." I nod and say "okay I'm gonna get help just don't fall asleep." She just groans and reaches up to her head.

"JOSH!" I go back to her side and say "we are gonna take you to the hospital....how did this happen?" She frowns and says "I-I think Zayn's mad at me....he told me to move out of his way...b-but I didn't...I didn't want him t-to go do something s-stupid."

I frown deeply and say "so what did he do?" She frowns and tears fall again. "H-he just shoved me......he didn't mean it k-kaylin." I frown and say "no fuck that...he's not going anywhere near you."

She frowns and he eyes start to drop. I hold her hand gently "hey. Keep those eyes open....JOSH GET THE FUCK DOWN HERE!"

Josh comes running down the steps and sees me and Taylor on the floor. His eyes widen when he sees Taylor and he rushes over " what the fuck happened?!?"

He bends down on the other side of her. "Zayn shoved her and I think she hit her head on the counter...we need to take her to the hospital."

He nods and says gently to her. "Tay hang in there...I'm going to carry you to the car okay?" He gently scoops her up bridal style and she lets out a small cry. "Ow!, fucking ball sack it hurts!"

He nods and rests her head gently on his chest. We both rush out to the car. He lays her across the back seat and says "you should sit back there with her." I nod and lift her feet up and place them on my lap.

He closes the door and then quickly gets in the driver's seat and starts the car. "Okay let's go baby she's falling asleep." He nods and quickly speeds off towards the hospital.

I look down at Tay and sigh sadly. I'm so fucking pissed at Zayn, I'm gonna beat his ass so fucking hard the next time I see his fucking face.

I glare at the window and Josh says "hey, she will be okay...I think she will be fine." I sniff and say "you said that earlier too, and look what happened."

He frowns and doesn't say anything the rest of the way. Fuck you Zayn....just fuck you with something hard and sandpapery....

I look back down to Tay and she's desperately trying to keep her eyes open but she can't anymore. She gives up and her body goes limp. My eyes widen and I shout "JOSH GO!"

He drives around the corner and says "okay we're here!" He parks quickly and I slide out of the back and slam the door shut.

Josh runs around the car behind me and opens Tay's door and scoops her up and we run into the hospital after do close the car up.

He looks around and sees a doctor. "DOCTOR!...please help my friend is bleeding." The doctor runs over and checks her.

He stands there for a while and I say "are you fucking serious?!?...she bleeding from her head put her in a fucking room and stitch that shit up!"

The doctor nods and then says "right sorry....NURSE GET A BED!" A nurse comes rushing around the hall with a bed and Josh gently lays her on it and her body lays motionless on the bed.

I frown feeling tears threaten to fall and I cross my arms. Josh wraps me in his arms and I rest my head on his chest still looking as they run Taylor down the hall.

A tear spills over and I close my eyes. Josh rubs my back soothing and I let out a slight cry. "I'm gonna fucking kill Zayn." Josh nods and says "I know....just think positive and she will be okay."

I shout at him, "YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW THAT!" He frowns and says "baby yes I do." I frown and he hugs me closer.

"How?" He chuckles lightly "because it's Taylor...she will be okay...how is she supposed to come back and be the sarcastic sassy bitch she is."

I laugh lightly and nod. "Yeah..." he smiles and says "and because we love her...and she loves us....she will be just fine."

I nod and then wipe my eyes. "Zayn better hope he doesn't see me anytime soon....I'm gonna beat his skinny vampire ass."
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(Zayn's POV)

I am on my way to Kaylin's home again when my phone rings. I answer it with out looking at the caller ID.

(Start of call)
Z:hello?
K: I fucking hate you.
Z:Kaylin?, why what did I do?
K:are you fucking kidding me?!?, what did you do?!?.....you put your fucking wife in the hospital,after she just got home saftley that's what you did!
Z:what?.....w-what happened?
K:you don't even fucking know what happened?!?
Z:no!, just please tell me is she okay?
K:we don't fucking know yet and you don't deserve to know seeing as you caused it.
Z:wait Kaylin I'm sorry.
K:fuck off Zayn...it's not me you put in the hospital....but the next time I see you, I'm gonna fucking kill you.
Z: Kaylin-
K: don't even come to this hospital Zayn...I mean it.
(End of call)

I stare at my phone in shock after Kaylin hung up on me. What did I do?!?....if anything happens to her it'll be all my fault....

I feel tears gather in my eyes as I think about what I could've possibly done. Then it hits me.

Flashback......

"move the fuck out of my way." She shakes her head. "No." I growl and shout "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY TAYLOR!!"

She starts to shake and then stays still. I shove her harshly out of the way. I hear a thump and she lets out a tiny scream. I'm so mad that I don't even bother looking back to see if she's okay.

I storm out of the house and to the woods. Fuck human food, I need blood...

End of flashback......

My eyes widen as I realize I shoved her, and she might've hit her head or something. Oh my fucking god....what is wrong with me?, I would never lay a hand on her...what's going on with me?...

I feel an immense amount if guilt way in on my shoulders. I slump against the wall of Kaylin's living room and I burrow my face in my hands and sob.

"What the fuck is wrong with you Zayn?....you just got her back and now you're gonna loose her forever." I furiously wipe my eyes and then try to call Kaylin but she won't answer.

I groan loudly and then call Josh. After the second time of calling he answers.

(Start of call)
J: what the fuck do you want Zayn?
Z:Josh...just please tell me she's okay?
J: have you- have you been crying?
Z: yes....is she okay?
J:Zayn....they said she hit her head pretty hard...they are seeing if she can remember anything now, so I'm going in.
Z:she might not remember anything?.....or anyone?
J:exactly Zayn...and it'll be your fault.
(End of call)

I drop my phone on the floor and stare at the wall infront of me in shock and sadness. "What have I done?" She might not remember who I am....she might not remember that she's married.....she might not remember Josh, or Kaylin...

I let out another sob and cry into my knees. Fuck you Zayn...you deserve to feel this pain.....It's all your fault...she will never want you again even if she remembers you....

I wipe my eyes and stand up grabbing my phone. I walk into the kitchen and almost slip on some liquid. I look down and see a pool of blood on the floor.

I hiss and cover my nose. I stare at the pool of blood and feel tears prick my eyes. I did this....I grab some paper towels and floor cleaner and clean up Tay's blood.

I throw out the paper towels and sniff. My eyes are puffy and red from crying. I am mortified with myself for doing this to her.

She has done nothing to deserve this. I shouldn't have even gotten mad, she did nothing wrong. I put on my shoes and the keys to Tay's car.

Honestly she probably didn't even want me in her car. Let alone to drive down there and see her. I get in the car anyways and drive to the hospital.