What I've Been Living For

Chapter Twenty-Six: Beautiful Distraction

" And it's so hard to focus when I can feel you breathing, touching, kissing me alive,

Despite all my fears and reactions,

You're my distraction

And you're as beautiful as my nightmare" (own quote)

Edward's POV

If someone were to ask me what happened in my last classes, I honestly couldn't give them an answer. The only thing I could focus on was Bella. She filled up every crevice of my mind, derailed all other thoughts of the world. Her mere presence made the incessant buzz of the students' mind disappear into a faded background noise, as my brain centered around her completely. Like a light being turned on in a dark room, she illuminated my entire being and for once in a long time, I found myself wanting to live for more than protecting my family.

I waited idly in my last class of the day, my mind wandering back to our encounter with Bella. She walked in like a goddess, her beauty stealing away the hearts of all those who saw her. She had always been beautiful to me, but now she was more stunning than ever. How much did I want to run my fingers through her chestnut tresses and bury my face in her neck while smelling her sweet scent. I wanted to caresses every inch of her creamy skin that tempted the eye behind her forest green lace top. I closed my eyes briefly, allowing my thoughts to calm down as I breathe out. I haven't even talked to her and already my mind was wrapped up in her. I kept my eyes close, enjoying for once the loud chatters of the other students, as their conversations helped keep me distracted from the beautiful girl who was my everything.

I listened disinterested, unable to comprehend how teenagers could talk in such slang, when suddenly a voice whispered.

"Omg, it's Bella Swan!"

My eyes broke open as I watched her walk gracefully to the teacher behind his desk. I felt my body shake in awareness as I stared intently at her slender form. As if sensing my stare, she slowly turned around to lock eyes with mine and I swear if my heart was still beating, it would've stuttered. Her chocolate brown eyes locked with mine and the entire world stopped existing. It was just me and her. I let my eyes wander over her face, memorizing every particle, noticing every lash in her thick curled eyelashes, noting the slight pink color painted upon her cheeks and recording every different shade of brown in her gorgeous doe-like eyes. As I continued to stare at her, her face slightly turned and for a second, I saw a flash of bright emerald green in her eyes.I blinked quickly, looking again in her eyes, to find them their usual brown.

"Must've been a trick of the light" I thought to myself.

I'm not sure how long I continued to stare at Bella, but eventually the teacher returned her slip and asked her to pick a seat. There were two seats left available in the class; one next to me and the other next to Mike Newton. I watched as Bella looked at the two available options, her eyes staying longer on the desk next to Mike. My heart gripped in my chest at the thought of her choosing to sit next to him over me, though I couldn't blame her for her choice.

"I think I'll sit next to Mike" Bella's glorious voice spoke, quietly.

I was disappointed that she wouldn't sit next to me but my mood quickly shifted to fury as I listened to Mike's thoughts.

"Well hello there Bella! Damn she looks hot! I guess her and Cullen are over if she's sitting next to me. Hmm the things I could do to that body. And those lips....Wonder what she can do with them"

I gripped the edge of the desk tight in anger, refraining myself from ripping apart the foolish hormonal boy who thought it was okay to think those thoughts about  Bella. Even if she wasn't with me, she was still a person and she didn't deserve to be subjected to his lewd thoughts.