"Try to understand"
"
Oh if only
You knew
Try to understand
You're searching for love
For acceptance
For happieness
But that's not
What has been planned for me
That's not what I'm here for
My purpose in life is not
To grow up, birth child
And add to the gene pool
And to the one that helped me awake,
One day I'll wake up
And you'll be gone
Just like everybody else.
I know your notions better
Then you know or tell me
Just like everybody else
I'll cry, I'll bawl my eyes out
But in the end I'll be okay
As always
You'll leave me a scar
My heart will be demolished
For maybe a week
A month
Or maybe I'll carry it around forever
Like the pain of losing Laura
Who knows?
And to the one who yearns for me
I'm not intended to be kept
No matter how desirable I can be
Everyone will let go
Even you
You just can't see it.
I'm not here to birth children
Cook, clean, and then rear a family
And have sex with you each night
That is not my purpose
Neither will I ever be happy that way
I know your notions
Better then you know or tell me
From me,
There's always a goodbye
And I will always be alone.
In the end
And I can deal with it
I will be used to it
In time
To the coldness of an empty bed
Being totally alone
Because nobody in the world
Who's true
Will stick around with me
I accept that
I adore that
I'm boring
I'm secretive
I think too much for a woman
I understand too much
I'm not able to do anything
That any other woman could do
I do the wrong things
Because it's important to
Do the wrong things
For love
I let people go
Even if I love them
I never fight for what really matters to me
Unless there's this dire need
To take out what's between me and my goal
But I so rarely fight
For my heart
You matter though
You matter to me
You mean the world to me
But you don't know what that means
So you can never return it
To me.
"
