Forbidden Desires

Chapter Seventeen-Revival

Two days had gone by.

Two days and Kyle hadn't bothered to call or text me.I've been sulking in my room for the past two days,dad comes by and asks what's wrong but I only shake my head or tell him to leave me alone.Mom hadn't come up to me either,dad is the only one who asks me if I'm hungry or not.Lilly calls me regularly but I always ignore her calls.

Everytime my phone rings,my heart starts beating rapidly but it dies as I realize that Kyle isn't the one calling.I know I messed up,I know that I shouldn't have told anyone about him,I know that our secret isn't a normal one but he should at least give me a chance.A chance for me to apologize.

How are we suppose to progress in our relationship if he isn't even willing to talk to me?

His reaction has me scared to be honest.I don't know how he's going to react when he finds out that my dad knows about him.That he wants to meet him.

I'm worried that he would just plain out leave me thinking that I'm not worthy of him and on the other hand,I'm worried that dad will stop me from seeing him.I know how his mind works,I know how much he loves me...he will probably think that by being with Kyle,I'm putting my life in danger.

I slowly got up and the sound of my bones cracking echoed in the silent environment of my own personal hell.I guess staying in bed all day does that to you.

I rubbed my arms and looked at the rising sun.The birds were chirping loudly and I felt my heart warm up a bit.My wolf was quiet but I knew it wanted to go for a run.No matter what the situation might,one could not stop doing what it's instincts wanted to do.

And right now my wolf wanted to run.

"Jessica? Baby? Are you up?"I heard my dad gently knock.

I gingerly got up and went towards the door.I unlocked the door and stared at my dad,he had dark circles underneath his eyes and he had an aura of depression surrounding him.My heart clenched when I took a long look at him,I don't know how I could be so selfish.Why didn't I realize that my downfall could also result in the downfall of people surrounding me?

I latched myself into my dad's arm and took a deep breath.The smell of his cologne sent a weird sense of warmth through me.He kissed the top of my head and rested his chin on top of my head.

"I'm sorry dad.I shouldn't have shut you out like that"

"It isn't your fault baby girl.Tell me what's bothering you,you've been depressed and alone for way too long.You know you always have your father by your side right?"

I nodded my head and kissed his chest."I know dad but I just...I didn't know what to do"

"Something wrong between you and your...mate?"

"How'd you know?"

He chuckled."Well when your mother and I used to fight,one of us would always end up sulking"

He's not my mate.

I took a long look at him and smiled.Maybe mom was just mad and said that for no reason.

Yeah that's it,she was just mad.

"Where's mom?"

"She's down in the kitchen,go take a shower and then meet us down to eat it.I've ate without you for way too long"

I chuckled and nodded.I closed the door and once again went towards my phone which was plugged in for charging.I've been charging my phone non-stop,worried that Kyle might be calling and my phone won't have enough battery.

I laughed at my own ridiculousness.If he won't bother...why should I?

I unplugged my phone and texted Lilly,asking her to meet me at school.I've been skipping school for way too long.

I hurriedly showered and dressed myself,put my books in my bag and then raced down to get some breakfast.

Mom was sitting right beside dad eating while dad was waiting for me so we could eat together.I sat down to his right and then both of us dug into our food.I sneaked a glance at my mom who didn't even bother to look at me.

I swallowed and then looked at her."You've cooked wonderfully mom"

She nodded but didn't look at me nor did she smile.My smile dropped and I looked at my dad for reassurance.He placed his hand on top of mine and gave me one of his dashing smiles,one that would always make me feel safe and loved.

"Can you pick me up from school? Maybe both of us can go out for a run together then?"

"Of course! Just give me a call as soon as your school gets off"

I kissed his forehead and stood up to leave.My mom was clenching her spoon tightly and her mouth had formed a thin line."Mom you're coming too right?"

She looked up at me and gave me a tight smile.

I didn't know what to make of the situation so I left the house,deciding to walk towards my school.

I plugged my headphones in and soon "Good For You" by Selena Gomez blasted in my ears.The song had a unique way of relating to my life at the moment.

Let me show you how proud I am to be yours

Leave this dress a mess on the floor

Still look good for you,good for you

If only you would let me explain Kyle,if only you would let me explain.