Chapter 9-
"Jessica I have good and bad news..." Andy texted me right before my first finial of the week. What the hell would the good news be?? What the hell would the bad news be?? Why now?? Why before this test?? Why now...
I'm not even sure if I passed this test. It's a big chunk of my last grade. The drive home I kept telling myself id survive; I'd make it through it. It would be no worse than what I'd call my childhood...
"Daddy look what I made?" 5 year old me said holding up a horrid picture I drew of an owl that day in class. "that's great." he said in a tone I hadn't understood until now; it was his 'that's-good-not-great' tone. i still stood there holding that damn picture wanting him to turn and look at it again. "I have good and bad news Jessica." he said in an even tone. I nodded my little head for him to continue. "we're moving." he said still in that even tone. "where?" I asked. as a child you don't realize what moving is. it's leaving your friends behind you; it's running away; it's leaving. "somewhere in California." he said leaving the room. I heard the bad news now where is the good?
Would Andy tell me the good and the bad...
I walked in and saw a suite case sitting in the walkway and Andy yelling on the phone. "are you leaving?" I asked blinking rapidly. he angrily hung up the phone and raked his fingers through his hair. "what? oh fuck. yeah i guess i am." he said now pacing; i could almost see the negative energy around him; red and angry through and through. "where?" i asked trying to keep myself standing up. "Tour; they want us to show people who we are." he said. he was calming down now; he almost looked sad. "that's great." i said trying to sound happy for him. i was but tour could last a really long time and you have no clue how the relationship is gonna last under pressure...a new relationship at that..
"come with me? we can see new cities and places and towns." he said grabbing my hands in his. "i can't andrew...i have class." i said feeling a little ashamed and abused. it was all happening way too fast. "but what about us?" he said trying to make sense of all of this. "what do you mean? you gave me a promise ring right? you said we'd be together." i said not bringing my eyes to his. "but i wont see you for weeks..." he said sounding defeated. "i'm still gonna be here though. i'm not going anywhere." when i finally brought my eyes to his i could see that he was crying. i shushed him and let him cry; everyone needs to cry sometimes...
5 1/2 long weeks later...
i ended up passing all my midterms and was making it through my next round of classes with flying colors. andy was due home at any moment....
"how was tour?" i asked after we finished our dinner. "tour was fine, it was great, but i missed you." he said giving me a small smile. "i missed you too." i said still feeling the longing i had when he was gone. "what did you do when i was gone?" he asked laying down on the sofa. "i kept myself pretty just for you." i said like a typical valley girl; i even through my hair over my shoulder. "you're already pretty." he said rolling his eyes. "what did you do to keep yourself happy?" i asked in an almost serious way. "i slept a lot." he said wrapping his arms around me. "you just slept? by yourself?" i asked raising my eyebrows. "yes baby." he said all amusement gone. "good." i said kissing him. he pulled me into a deep kiss and we made our way back into our bedroom.
being away from him was so weird but getting used to a guy in my life is even more weird. i forgot how messy he really was. i had to pick up after him everytime he left a room. i almost forgot how gross of an eater he was at eating. boys are gross! "hey my boyfriend is throwing a party. first of the year. stop by?" Lexi said as our psych class let out. "I'll see what Andy is doing I'll try to stop by." I said as I took down the information. "wanna go to a college party?" I asked as I stepped out of the shower. "college party?" he asked sitting up on the bed. "its my friend's boyfriends thing. can we go?" I asked picking out an outfit. "we can swing by." he said getting up. I went over to his closet and picked out on of his old and faded muscle t-shirts, I pared it up with a black bandoo and ripped up black jeans with simple boots. "you look like a hot rocker." he said coming up behind me. "isn't that a good thing." I said laughing at him...
"you made it!" Lexi said running and hugging me. "oh so THIS is Andy." she said giving him a look; we laughed at him blushing and I formally introduced them. "good turn out." I said looking around at the groups of people around us. yet all at once the room fell silent.
"is that him?"
"Andy?"
"who's the girl with him?"
"what the hell is happening? did they know we were coming?" I said leaning closer to Lexi for only her to hear. "no one knew..." she said giving all her friends a weird look. "can I get a picture with you?" a random girl asked Andy. he looked over at me before he posed next to her as he friend took the picture. "your boyfriend is getting famous..." Lexi said looking at the people lining up to see him. "yeah I guess he is..." I said giving a whore the death stare. having a famous boyfriend is gonna be a weird thing to get used to...
lets see if we can last through this....
