Finding My Dad

3) no hope

"Uh, hi" I stumbled

"Who is this?" He said.

"I-uh it's, I'm. Imgiannayourdaughter."

"Excuse me?" he said growing impatient.

"I'm Gianna, your daughter."

There was no voice on the other end.

"Hello?" I said

"I, I'm sorry, but is this a joke?"

"No. I swear I'm your daughter. ask me anything and I can answer it."

"What's your mothers full name?"

"Kayla Rose Havens"

"What's your birthday?"

"April 26"

"Your moms birthday"

"October 3"

"How do you know I'm your father? how do i know your not a fan?"

"I swear I'm your daughter. my mom wouldn't let me meet you so I researched and found all kinds of information. I found your name and called my aunt Caitlyn and she gave me your number."

"Oh. why are so interested if your mom told you not to bother looking for me?"

"Things with my mom aren't good. that house isn't good. her boyfriend is awful and he makes me call him 'dad' they want me no where near you."

"Well Gianna, your mom has custody. there's not much I can do."

"I know, but I've waited a long time to have this conversation. all I want is to know who my dad is, just, just never mind. I'm sorry if I put you in an awkward position. I just wanted to talk to you, and I did. I'll leave you alone now. Goodbye, I love you."

And I hung up with tears streaming down my face. I thought that phone call would change my life. I thought it would make everything right. I could get away from my mom and Alex, I could leave it all for the life of my dreams, with my father.

As I walk towards my house my phone starts vibrating. It's him. I can't answer it. I just can't. he doesn't need to deal with me, he shouldn't have to take care of a kid because I want him to. it's not fair.

I got home and took a shower, then ate then slept.

My nap was about 4 hours long. when I woke up I checked my phone. 4 text messages, 10 missed calls, and 7 voicemails. All from my dad. The texts said-

Please answer me

I want to know you

Please let me see what I've been missing for the past 13 years.

Gianna please. I will be the dad you've always wanted. Please.

I don't even respond. I was so focused on meeting him and living the perfect life. but that can't happen. when reality hit me that that couldn't happen, it was a hard, painful slap in the face.

I just don't know. I confuse my self sometimes. I want to meet him. I was excited to find him. but now that I have, I realize it's too good to be true.

There's jut no hope.