Torn Apart ((Kylo Ren)) //Unfinished but being reworked//

Leaving

I decide to sleep for a while before having to work again. I lie on my side with an arm draped out, waiting for someone to find a home under it. I drift off quickly, having not slept since being knocked out a day earlier.

A loud commotion on my door wakes me hours later. I open my eyes and look ahead of me, checking for anyone in my arm. My heart sinks when I see that Kylo hadn't returned. With a sigh, I stand and open my door slightly. I am met by Captain Phasma and several other troopers. I cross my arms, impatient and curious about why they were here.

"Lady Aldaine, General Hux has order you to gather what you need and come with us to the landing bay. You are leaving the Finalizer." Phasma states, her silver suit reflecting dangerously bright in the florescent lighting.

"I leave tomorrow." I reply flatly, annoyed at the whole situation that is arising.

She makes a noise in frustration, she was never one for my defiance, before repeating her statement. "General Hux has informed us to collect you. The time table has changed, now hurry." With that, the door snaps shut and I'm alone again. I wish with all my power I could ignore my orders but I can't. I turn from the door, grab my belt and saber before opening my door with a wave of my hand and starting off without waiting for my escort.

Each step feels heavier when I take it. I want to drag my feet and stop this whole mess but I can't without being suspected of being a traitor so I trudge on. I draw my mouth into a tight line when I get to the bay and see Hux standing in front of a transport ship. I enter his mind for a moment and sweep for the satisfaction of my leaving. I have a difficult time shifting through all the hateful and evil thoughts but I eventually find his reason for this order. A Stormtrooper had seen Kylo and I go into my room earlier and he drew conclusions. Hux's conclusions were right but I would never give him that much satisfaction.

"What is this all about General?" I ask when I meet him near the ship.

His face was placid but a proud look shone behind his blue eyes. "Supreme Leader has sent me an order to dispatch your ship today instead of tomorrow. He deems it necessary for you to begin training earlier than anticipated."

I cross my arms in frustration and give an aggravated sigh. "Does Ren know about this?"

"No but he doesn't need to. This order was given by Supreme Leader and mustn't be questioned. Just get on the ship before I force you on beaten and bloody."

"Oh no no no." I mutter, a puss appearing on my face. "If I show up all beaten and bloody, Supreme Leader would have questions for you." I smirk at him victoriously. Hux shows no sign of defeat but annoyance started to wrinkle his forehead and around his mouth. I sigh dramatically again before sauntering past him and onto the ship.

"The First Order handles traitors with the utmost brutality. Just so you know before you arrive." He comments, making me turn around. My mouth gaps open at his indirect accusation.

"I know exactly how we handle traitors, I've dealt with plenty. See you soon General." I activate the door to close and watch Hux until I can barely see his hair. That's when I yell, "Oh and tell Ren about this. He should probable be kept in the loop about all my affairs, unless of course, you'd rather meet the other end of the lightsaber of his." I cackle as I sense Hux's anger bubble over the top. I feel the ship hitch upward and I remain at the door staring at the dark metal.

Leaving the Finalizer felt like leaving my home planet all over again. Something was keeping me attached to that place. It was my mother and father for my home planet and now it was Kylo back at the Finalizer. I was weak for being attached to him. I was weak for wanting him. I was weak for loving him.

I make a vow while staring at the metal wall keeping me from my stars. I vow to never stop loving Kylo. I remind myself that I do not love Ben Solo, the foolish boy that belongs to the Light side, but Kylo Ren with all his power and hate fueling a fire of hidden emotion. I broke into that fire and took a piece of it with me.

I also foolishly hope that he realizes that I do love him, despite what I said. He worked his way inside my closed off mind to find the webs of thought and emotion inside. He reached in and changed my life for better and worse. He taught me, helped me grow, and fell hopelessly in love with me. I cannot blame him or be angry with him for it because I fell hopelessly and foolishly in love with him. And now here I am, flying towards a destiny I had chosen for myself.

I gather myself back together and walk to a seat on the ship. It is only moments before the ship jolts to a stop and the door drops, revealing a dark environment. I stand and straighten my robes before stepping down and disappearing into the darkness of my future.

|| Super short and updated about two, three months too late. No one is going to be reading this but oh well. ||