Fall (Bangtan Sonyeondan BTS Alternate Universe)

42. Sighting

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After the many allegations against me, I was back to strictly babysitting Bobby, indefinitely. Again.

I don't know how many times I would have to fall and rise back up the ranks before these morons would just let me finish my plan. It was getting frustrating, really.

It was drug run after drug run, and it was boring, before it even started. Add to the fact that I despised Bobby's guts after listening to one too many of his sloppy disses against Namjoon, it was definitely not pleasant.

I wanted to throw him into a wall and leave him there.

But seeing as I needed to get back into Seung-Jae's approval, that would probably be a bad idea.

So I bit my tongue and bore through it.

Today was, surprise surprise, another drug run.

This kid didn't seem to be good for much else.

He may be older than me, but he was still a kid as far as I cared. Good thing he wasn't taller than me, especially not with my heels, otherwise he might get the wrong idea.

"Alright kid, let's do this fast, I'm not really feeling your shit today. I don't care who you are, I'm still your boss."

Bobby glared at me, and I raised my eyebrows at him, daring him to do something.

He just grumbled something about a no good bitch - obviously talking about himself - and walked away.

I followed behind, dragging my feet and trying to think of something other than Bangtan.

Luck wasn't on my side - as usual - because right there, Bobby's buyer, a well endowed teenage girl with a penchant for chewing bubblegum like a horse stood at the meeting place.

Only, she wasn't alone. 2 men stood beside her, obviously speaking about something important, as they were leaning down to listen to her.

The girl turned and pointed at Bobby and I, and then the men were turning around.

The first, a blond man with an intense face, wasn't familiar to me. But the second, I had memorized that face.

Namjoon.

What was he doing here? And why had the girl pointed?

Could it be that he really was looking for me?

But why?

Was it to find me and kill me? I shuddered at the thought. Like I had told B-Free, his torture was nothing compared to what Jimin would do to me if he was told to.

I couldn't imagine seeing Jimin's sweet face, knowing his bashful personality when he was doing unimaginably painful things to me. All of that fell away when he meant business, he was terrifying.

And Suga - there was a reason all of them were at least a little scared of him. I'd had never seen his work, or heard of what it was like. But it definitely wasn't pleasant, I knew that much. I didn't know the details.

I'd rather keep it that way. I didn't want to be another part of his collection.

Maybe, he was searching for me to bring me back?

I much preferred that option.

But for the first time, I realized that I may not even be accepted back into Bangtan.

Would they give me a chance to explain why I had left? Yes, it was partially to find my place, but the main reason now, was to ruin the Double Dragon. I had to do that, I couldn't go back until I did that.

But would they understand, even if I explained?

And how was Angel without me? I didn't want to think of it, but I missed her so badly. I had spent that last 2 years being with her everyday, and this was like ripping off a bandage before it was ready, and I was a festering wound desperately wishing that Angel would come back to cover me while I healed.

And Namjoon, god I missed him. I missed his easy arrogance. I missed his smug face when I cuddled into his lap. I missed his arms, his dimples, his eyes, his lips, his kisses. I missed him.

I missed J-Hope's dancing. I wonder if Jimin was taking care of him, making sure he didn't have to act happy all the time.

I missed Jimin and his innocent charm, his sex symbol status, and his cheesy smiles. I hope J-Hope was taking care of him too.

I missed V and his outlandish theories about the world. I missed his strange antics and his silly facial expressions.

I missed Angel, her calming presence, knowing eyes and soothing hands.

I missed Star, her unnatural investment in Namjoon dating me, and her teasing, and her warm aura.

I missed Suga and his calm demeanor, contrasting everyone else's flamboyant attitudes.

I missed Jungkook, his shyness and his little bunny smile, his soft chuckle.

I missed Bangtan.

Did they miss me?

I caught Namjoon's eyes just before Bobby turned around and ran.

So much for his 'I could kick Rap Monster's ass' attitude. It's a little different seeing Namjoon in person, when he's towering over you with that dangerous smirk, so Bobby finally learned. Maybe he'd hold his tongue now.

Bobby was all talk, after all.

Just before I turned around to follow Bobby back to the base, I kept Namjoon's gaze, sending him a wink before running.

I hope he could understand that I was still on his side, that I was infiltrating the Double Dragon. He had to know I didn't really want to be around any of them, right?

I easily caught up to Bobby, who gave me a suspicious look.

I rolled my eyes; this could only mean one thing.

He was going to tattle and blame Namjoon being there on me.

As if I knew Namjoon was there. If I had, I'd never have gone.

Still, it was nice to see him. But it was not nice enough to excuse and make up for the torture I would most definitely have to go through again from this.

Lovely.