Love at War

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

I stand there with the necklace and letter in my hands and I watch as he drives away from me forever. I sit down on the grass not realizing that I was still outside. I opened the letter and it said:

My dearest Elizabeth, I can't tell you how much leaving you hurts me, I wish I could stay and be with you but that obviously isn't an option. You will be the only one I think about. I never stopped thinking about you and I never will stop. I wish that this war was over awhile ago so I could spend the rest of my life with you. You mean the world to me! I will do everything I can to get back home to you. This is the hardest thing I have ever done, I can't stand the thought of leaving you. But this is the only way that after we win this war you will be safe.

Some day we can be together in a place that will be safe. Everyday until I get back home to you, you will be the only reason I need to come home.

Love, Jacob

I didn't realize I was crying till a drop fell onto the paper. I wipe my tears and I stand up. I go into the house and no one's there I then realize that I'm all alone by myself in this house for months and months. I sit there for awhile and I didn't realize that I wasn't doing anything.

For three months I didn't move I just sat there and I thought about Jacob and how I missed him so much. One day I finally, decide to get up but the thought of it brought me back down into the chair. For me there was no reason for me to get up, no one was there for me, there was nothing. John once and awhile comes to check on me. He tried to get me to get up and take a walk but I just shut him out. I didn't realize that everyday he would set food on the table right next to me.

One day I think that I started to talk to him but I didn't realize it. He tries to cheer me up. He doesn't like how I'm so out of things and that I don't talk to anyone. He tries to bring people to me that I might talk too, but even my closest friends I shut out. I can tell that he feels like he's failed. I try to talk to him but nothing comes out. One night I had a bad nightmare and I thought that Jacob was right next to me but I saw that it was John instead. I start to cry. I think John feels bad cause everything he tries doesn't work. I know he's trying it's just I don't want anyone other than Jacob next to me trying to calm me down, after I calm down, I can tell that he's exhausted. I know that I don't deserve him trying to help me. I try to give him less things to help me with.

I just want Jacob to come home so I can stop with this madness. One day I pick up the letter that he gave me and I read it again. This makes me want him to come home even more. One day I think I surprised John when I got up and I took a shower. I couldn't believe how much I missed walking around. I walked to the room where I was staying in for awhile and I went in there and I missed the smell of my belongings. This day made me so happy that I was but one thing could only make me happy, and that was Jacob.

I walked into the kitchen where John was and he just looked at me like he couldn't believe I was up. I felt like I was dead and that I'm alive and everything is awake. John came up to me and hugged me. I knew he was happy that I was awake from my sleep of sadness. That night he took me out to eat so I could get fresh air. He tried to get me to eat but I didn't. I knew that he knew I wasn't fully back. So he just let me be. After dinner we went back to the house. When we got back I went straight for the chair I sat in for months. I sat down and John came in and just looked at me like he couldn't believe what he was seeing. I knew that I couldn't stay like this forever, but for now this would have to do.

Some days I could hear Ashley and John talking and they would talk about how the war is almost over. I wondered to myself some days why I was here sitting. I knew that by doing this I was hurting my friends. But I didn't care the only thing I cared about was Jacob. I always thought about my friends. One day something really scared me I thought about my childhood with my parents. I started crying about it and Ashley and John rushed and they asked what was wrong but I just sat there not being able to tell them. One day there was a knock and I didn't even bother who it was. I just fell asleep but was awaken by a horrible nightmare. And I awoke with a scream and I was comforted by someone who I thought was John but was better. It was Jacob.

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Author's note: Oh my goodness I am so sorry I've been the busiest I have ever been in a while. I promise I will try and keep up. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Vote and Comment on what you think :)

-allymoe