Chapter 9:
There he was. Guy. Talking and having fun.
"Al, please, I want to leave now", I begged. She kept going in a fast pace towards the group in front of us. I stopped and crossed my arms. "I'm staying here while you talk to them"
Alisa stopped too. She sighed. "Why don't you want to meet them? I mean Guy was looking at you like, half the concert?"
I sighed dramatically. "Al. Guy and Will was the ones who saved me from drowning"
Her eyes widened. "What? Why didn't you tell me? I wouldn't have brought you if I knew that you didn't want to see them"
"Because I had no idea they were famous. It's not like they told me and it's not like I've been stalking Coldplay just because I listen to their music"
"Okay, then. But please don't stand here all night. Just follow me, you don't have to say anything if you don't want to"
I agreed to that after a while and we continued to the group of people. There were five men and two girls. Four of them was the band members and I guess one of the girls was the fiancée that Al had been talking about. My thoughts were confirmed the moment Al went up and hugged the dark brown haired girl. They seemed pretty close and a small pang of jealousy hit me in my chest. The girl now introduced the group to Al.
"Alisa, this is Jonny, my fiancé. That's Chris and Adelaide, Chris fiancée. And here's Will, Guy and Phil, the boy's manager", all of them greeted and smiled at Alisa while I just stood there and nobody noticed me. The girl, Samantha, spoke up again. "And who do we have here?", she said and looked me in the eyes. "I'm Noelle", I mumbled as I looked at my shoes. "She's my best friend", Al said in an attempt to save me from this awkward situation.
I felt how all eyes burned on me. "Oh", was all that Samantha managed to get out after a long moment of silence. I bet that Will and Guy has told everyone about me. I turned around to leave the venue. "Noelle, where are you going?", Al asked. Not turning around, I answered "to the bathroom". I lied. I'm not going back to them. I just want to go home. After walking for a few minutes I found myself lost backstage. I couldn't find my way out. Suddenly, I heard footsteps behind me.
"Noelle", It was Guy. I turned around slowly to meet his eyes. "You're not going to the bathroom, you're trying to leave"
The anger was raising inside of me. "I've been all alive the past six months since you last saw me. Happy?"
He sighed. "You can do whatever you want with your life, Noelle. But I didn't expect you to come here"
"Well I didn't expect you to be here either"
He looked surprised. "I'm in the band, of course I would be here"
"But how could I know, that the band that I have been listening to non stop the last months, the band that I have listened to while crying myself to sleep, the band that has given me strength to carry on, would be the band where you of all people play in? How was I supposed to know?"
Before he could say anything I continued.
"I feel betrayed, Guy. This whole Coldplay thing feels like a lie. If I knew, I wouldn't have come here tonight"
He looked hurt. "I'm sorry, Noelle. I really am"
I was slowly calming down. "I want to leave now. But I liked the concert even if my feelings destroyed it"
He started guiding me to the exit. When I was almost by the door, he grabbed my wrist. "It was all about you, Noelle"
I turned around in confusion. "What do you mean?"
"The song, Fix You. It was for you"
"Why?"
"Because I was so confused at that time. I just thought that I did some kind of heroic action, but it all came back in my face. I thought about it a lot so I wrote a song about it. And then I figured that maybe you would hear the song when it comes out"
He continued. "As I said, you can do whatever you want with your life, but I want you to know that I couldn't just leave you drowning when I saw you falling. I just couldn't"
I was slowly regretting that I was so rude when I first met them.
"No, I see that now. Alisa has showed me that life is for living"
He held my wrist tighter.
"Before you go, can you tell me why you did it?"
I closed my eyes for a moment.
"Honestly, I don't want to go through this again. I can't take it right now"
"I don't want to be rude, but Noelle, please tell me. I want to understand"
"Guy, not now. Maybe another time when it's not so fresh in my memory"
"So there will be another time?"
"I suppose so. It may not be soon but I guess there will be another time"
His grip loosened up a little. I don't know how the both of us got so emotional, but I think both of us thought about just that in that particular moment.
"Don't you want to stay and meet the others?"
"Another time, Guy"
"Please?"
"I'm sorry"
And with those words, I left him.
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A/N:
I feel like I'm in a flow right now and I'm happy that I've been writing three chapters in like two days. How are you all doing? I'm sorry that I'm not updating very often but I want to be better at that.
Take care,
~kiwibananaxx
