Chapter 5:
I woke up in a light place. It all was a bit blurry at first, but my eyes adjusted to the lights. Everything was white, just like I've imagined it to be. I felt cold. I looked down on my right side to see that my blanket was on the floor. But I also noticed that this was neither a dream or heaven. This is a hospital. I am alive.
Disappointment washed over me the moment I realized. I had failed. I will never see Gareth again. Gareth. I miss him.
My parents appeared in the doorway. They looked worried, but when they saw that I was awake they came up to me. My mother kissed my forehead and my father spoke. "Honey, are you alright? What happened?"
I thought for a moment. I couldn't possibly tell my parents that I wanted to die. That I walked away to end my life. "I walked to the beach and then I accidently fell down from the pier, but I'm okay now"
They seemed satisfied with my answer. "We'll let you rest for a while, love", they said and left me alone.
After a few good hours of sleep I woke up once again. The same lightness and the same disappointment. This time my sister turned up by the door. "There's two men here to see you". Before I knew it two men, probably around 30, turned up in my room. One of them was almost bald and the other one had dark, messy hair. I waited for them to say something, but they didn't. I closed my eyes. "Why are you here? Who are you?"
When I opened my eyes they stood closer to the bed. The one with dark hair took my hand and looked worried. "How are you?"
I sighed. "I'm fine. But who are you guys?"
The bald one now spoke up. "I'm Will, and this is Guy. We saved you from drowning yesterday"
My blood started boiling. I'm usually not the one who gets angry, but this time I did. "What makes you two think that you had the right to drag me out of the water?!", I shouted. It sounded quite pathetic really, since I couldn't really shout in this condition. The dark haired looked offended. "But you were drowning. We saved you. You would've died otherwise", he said in a low voice.
"What if that was the whole point then? You guys ruined everything!", tears started running down my cheeks now. The two of them stared at me in disbelief. "Why?", the bald one whispered. I calmed down and dried my tears. "Because the world will not be the same without him"
"I'm sorry", the other one said. Still remaining calm, I spoke. "You're not. You don't know how it is to lose the one you love. You don't know how it feels to see the corpse of your boyfriend. So don't pretend like you understand, or even care. You don't even know me"
"Fine then. I'm just trying to help yo-"
"But you failed", I added.
"You know what? We'll just leave you here. We just wanted to see that you're okay since we were the ones who dragged you out of the water. We just wanted you to live the beautiful life you were born to live. But nevermind, you don't want our help. So let's just leave you here. Guess we'll never see you again"
"I'm glad", I said when the two of them left my room. Gosh, how rude can you get?
My parents went in and out of my room so many times this day. They kept on saying that those two gentlemen were so fantastic and that we should invite them for dinner someday. My mind was screaming in disgust. Imagine having to be nice for several hours just to convince my parents that it all was an accident. Ew. Basically anything disgusts me right now. Even swimming. This world is so mediocre without Gareth.
But after lying in a hospital bed for a whole day without anything to do, I grew impatient. When I finally was allowed to go home it felt good. The moment my mum let me leave the house, I did. I went straight to the swimming hall.
My mind went blank the moment my body hit the water. It felt good to just think of nothing. The water relaxed me. I got out of the water and sat on the edge of the pool. A familiar girl made her way towards me. Her face expression was something unusual. She looked a bit sad.
"Noelle, I'm so sorry", Alisa said as she sat down besides me. I didn't answer, I just simply nodded. "And I heard about the accident, as your parens called it"
"What?", I snapped. "I went by your house to see if you were okay after Gareth's accident, but they told me that you went here. And they told me about your accident. I understand what you were doing, Noelle. Even if your parents are blind, it doesn't mean that I am"
I was so utterly confused at that moment. Did she understand that I was trying to end my life? And why on earth does she care? I stole the boy she liked and now he's dead. And now she cares about me.
After a moment of silence, I spoke up.
"I just...I just don't want to live without him"
Alisa nodded. "I just wanna straight some things out, okay?"
I nodded.
"Look, I know I've been a total bitch since you met me. I was so madly jealous that you were the one who won Gareth's heart. But you know what? I'm here now. And I will stick around until you tell me to piss off"
We laughed lightly together. "But seriously Noelle, you can talk to me"
I remained silent. Now that Gareth is gone, I have no friends. The more I thought about it, I realized that I have no friends. It was always about him.
"Will you accept my apology?", she asked.
"I will"
"So, want to grab a coffee tomorrow?", she asked with curiosity in her eyes. I nodded.
"I will show you that even without that boy, life is worth living"
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A/N:
Once again I'm so sorry for a late late update! But as I've said before, I'm very busy at the moment. But on wednesday I'm off for summer break, so hopefully I'll be able to write some chapters then!
Take care til next time!
~kiwibananaxx
